Aku Yang Dulu

Listening to this capturing and meletop song by Tegar makes me wonder what is actually happening to me....

Aku yang dulu, bukanlah yang sekarang
Dulu ku kuat, sekarang dah berkurang

Hehe....it's true that i am not that active, always on-the-go type of person anymore....simple thing that i managed to complete in seconds now has dragged to days and sometimes weeks........take this week for example. Everyone at the college was busy updating their Hrmis, the SKT stuff and yet i was not that keen to join the crowd....i spent more time procrastinating, taking my sweet time completing the simple task. Until now my Penilaian Prestasi is yet to see some data updated.....it is not i don't want to do but, i just don't like doing it.....Being in this service for about 28 years, filling in this form has been a reluctant task for me....i dont like bragging, i hate listing all the things i have done, i find explaining my doing is not my cup of tea.....for me, what is done, is done....but hey nowadays everyone has to highlight what they do/did to be in the good book. Gone were the days when teaching was about how passionate you were dealing with yours charges ( students)....now it is about telling others i have done this, i did that, i am going to do that..........

Then, came the last few days keying in the students' marks. Suddenly the MIS program went kaput.....in the end we had to do this manually.......we had to enter marks for almost a hundred students and believe me, this is no joking matter. I experience non stop headache for 2 days...nausea of straining my eyes on laptop screen and typing and saving the data.......well maybe for some new brooms, this is kacang, but for me, this is peanuts in hard shell...UPS, SPBK following......i want to resign..........

and PSPM 1 is around the scary corner. and there are so many things to be done...the techniques of answering questions, the skills tested in MUET, the essays to be marked, speaking practice to be perfected if possible, listening practice to be conducted and the list goes on.....

How i wish i could retire tomorrow so that i can shift my attention to my family, my hobby and my life.