My student

Yesterday, one boy from this class came to see me to confess his guilt feeling for failing to attend my class twice last week..he said he wanted to find out what would happen if for once he tried to miss the class. of course, being a good student, he felt restless fearing that he would hurt my feeling.

i felt a surge of touchy feeling, happy almost as i still have that kind of student, a smart guy who realized his own mistake( actually i tak lah kecil hati pun). he was the one who asked me why my teaching style was different from his other classes...he said i always wanted to know about the students.....n why i taught them English in a different style...i told him i study their characters so that i understand them better...as i also have children of their age...so most of my lesson content dealt with teengers, emotions, future stuff etc...which made him smile in class. he was smart to detect my objective...so i said i study PSYCHOLOGY so i love to learn about them.

Yesterday he revealed his mistakes in SPM, saying that last time he did not know the meaning/point of learning. now only he understands and he did well in his last sem exam and for this coming exam also, he is ready...good to hear such a frank revealation from a mature student.

how i wish i have more students like him....too bad he is not in the above photo.

Now and then

everytime we go to shops/supermarkets...ayish n alin will surely get some kind of toys/games or whatever they can play with....sometimes, umi gets headache looking at the scattered stuff ...there are so many types,designs, models that they have..so much so that they do not value them anymore.....
just turn around and surely we can see their toys, in the basket, boxes, store, and even in the kitchen, not to mention outside the house....umi dah tak larat nak simpan coz there are so many of them......
when umi was their age...it was terribly difficult even to get one doll...it was so expensive n tok wan or tok would have to think many times before buying ....n umi never got one doll except the paper one which came with matching clothes...umi thought umi had the whole world playing with it...and umi kept it safely......
it was unimaginable to be given other things....so umi n friends would always made it up by playing n roaming around the village. it was more fun and cheap.
imagine now letting alin and ayish play outside the house....they can only go out at 6pm...alin already knows about this..n everyday, she will check on the time...ready to hit her bicycle....but umi worries that she will get hurt....so who is to be blame?

overtime work

yesterday 28 mac, umi attended a meeting( pengurusan pelajar baru sesi 10/11)..yaa tuhan lamanya tunggu nak cakap 2 ayatpun. it started at 2.45 and at about 6pm then only umi could report umi's committee....umi only arrived at 7pm. then prayed asar9 memang gred D punya solat)...then waited for maghrib...
after dinner went to Yawata...amik duit and bought groceries.....arrived at about 9 something, then ironed clothes...by 11 umi dah nak collapse.....kesian alin and ayish had to mind themselves...let them played games.

agaknya bila leh selesa sikit kerja ni.

minggu ni study week but still have to finish marking students' essays...ntah nak mai amik tak bebudak tu.....
next week dah exam selama 2 minggu....baru umi leh settle keja and isi borang income tax...yg ini pun satu hal gak....umi akan kira sampai the last sen....

pasal master's tu entahla...nak buka folder dia pun dah tak selera...dah mati semangat...entah kenapa......

mood sekarang amat tak tentu hala.....

kisah birthday adik

Awal pagi 27 mac, umi pujuk abah n bob untuk tebang pokok2 kari dan pisang sebab nak bagi mudah pak chik yg buat tembok baru tu...clear la sikit. wlaupun penat, umi sure depa pun gumbira tengok pokok dah clear...lagipun umi bukan masak kari sangat.



then umi balik p masak kat tok sat...pas zohor kami p Aneka foodcourt...adik nak makan chicken chop lak....banyak la duit yg kena chop...ha ha ha


pas tu terus p main bowling lak....bob la menang tapi umi pun tak kurang hebat gak.yg tak boleh menang sebab ayish asyik buat perangai...so umi x leh focus....alasan yg munasabah.


then at 5 pm kami p tengok eman lak....beli cake blueberry kat adik...kat SMKAK kami jamu kawan2 eman. kesian bebudak tu....buat kenduri atas court sepak takraw.....
then kami balik....adui letih tul......apapun kami harap adik puas hati ......

Adik's 12th birthday

The clock struck 12 midnite n umi is typing this entry to give a special space and greeting to umi's 6th child Nurul Faizah who is celebrating her 12th birthday on 27th March....we just arrived from S Petani after buying her a new MP4....my anak2 sekarang...
umi can still remember delivering her 12 years ago...at Hospital Jitra at about 9.30 pm...actually delivering her was not that painful...the waiting was long though as umi started having mild pain right from the nite before, continued until morning, prolonged until evening...by maghrib only umi went to the hospital...still the pain was bearable....when the doctor came to check n broke the waterbag then umi had incessant pain..and out she came....quite easy eh...
now adik ( ingat dah tak ada anak lagi pas dia)is already a sweet young girl,ready to face her first big exam this year.the whole family always prays for her success....
umi could feel that adik was somehow neglected as the focus is either on the big ones or the small ...so she leads her own life in a silent way...not too obvious, hidden by others....
nevertheless, our love and affection are not any less.....umi just wants adik to know that....hepi birthday adik...May Allah bless you......

Last day of 2009/2010 session

Alhamdulillah, today is the last day for this session. my, how time flies..i still cannot remember my timetable and yet it's over already....it seemed yesterday we started the session and i just got to know my students.
as i left the class, i could still visualize my students' tense looked, unsure of their future, unclear how to face this final exam, unprepared for what's coming... i could only offer them my 2 sen worth advice, in the name of a lecturer cum mother..hope my sincere words would lighten their burden, enlighten their spirit and
guide them in their battle on the 5th April...
i can only pray for their success, as i believe i've done my level best to guide them in the tutorials. deep inside, i have my 100% trust that each one of them will succeed in their own way...scoring in exam is one thing, but how they manage their life is the most successful achievement.
To all my students in H3E1, H6E5, F2E1 and A1E4....all the best dear.......

NAK BALIK

petang khamis umi rushed balik....then at 5 kami bertolak ke KKB...tengah jalan kat exit Pendang, tayar Innova pancit lak....tayar yg sama masa antar Bob ke DQ dulu...ai...apa ni....sah Bob kena balik.
kami stop kat pekan pendang...tampung tayar RM12.....nasib baik tiub saja....maghrib time kami dah kat Penang...terus n stop kat Sg Perak makan dinner...then terus lagi...umi dah ngantuk sangat2 tak tahan btul...tak leh nak teman abah sembang...abah ok lak....mau dak dah minum radix n nescafe.....at 12 midnite baru sampai Rawang...masuj hotel terus lelap sampai pagi.....
Jumaaat pagi , at 10 kami dah sampai DQ...Bob ucap bye kat kawan2 dia....kami terus balik...on the way ingat nak singgah Penang jap.....so kami sampai kat B Suite hotel di Bukit Jambul at 4.00......tidur sat n at 6 pi kat shopping complex....at 8pm kami try bowling kat situ...last time kami main masa antar Along balik Mesir last year...
tak best main kat situ....lane buruk n bergerutu...tak macam kat Aneka Jitra.
now dah kat hotel....makan maggie la.....pagi esok kami akan bertolak ke Kedah.

anak-anak ummi

1. along sms saying that his results is better than the previous years...umi syukur sangat as umi understands that medicine is a very tough course.
2. akak is busy preparing for her final PSPM..to determine the course n university she will be accepted ...one month to go...umi prays for her success.
3. bob is contemplating ...stopped DQ n come back...umi n abah could not advise him anymore....he has to be responsible of his own move.
4. atih is bz with her form 5...now school holiday yet she attends xtra classes everyday...she is doing fine ....4A in her last test...ok la tu.....
5. eman is also learning from the brothers n sisters and he is mapping his own future....i believe he will create a name for himself.
6. adik is quite shaky...still cannot find her stand....accumulating Bs in her test...umi hopes to be by her side more often.
7. alin is another rising star...scored all As in her first test...another independent learner.
8. ayish is carving his own manja title...still hanging to his sitter's apron..not wanting to go to school..but ready to attack computer ....any time...mulut tetap becok though....

thinking back, umi realizes that our family creates colorful life ...all are ready to paint the world in our own ways and styles.......way to go everyone.

love makes me strong

friday umi had to work..replaced one day of CNY....rasa letih terkelepet...down with flu...did not get enough sleep...all added to my already long week....at 4.30 umi n akak left KMK for pendang lake resort, meeting abah n the rest there....syukur it rained heavilly.....umi can still feel the freshness of the raindrops.....
we arrived at about 6 ...all were famished...lapar as they did not eat lunch....luckilly umi aredy bought some snacks at Cmart....
then terus mancing....umi did not have any luck...the small fish took the bait and let ummi shiok sendiri....Bob was lucky though...he managed to get 3 ....terubat sikit kesedihan dia.....
that nite we fished again but no rezeki...so umi slept early...selsema makin teruk...
saturday morning, after subuh Bob, umi n atih dropped the lines again...for 3 hours we waited patiently but still did not get any...umi got fed up so balik bilik n tidur...by 12 we checked out....umi, adik, atih n ayish went to see tok, abah n the gang went to fetch eman at SMKAK.....
umi arrived at tok's almost zohor time....terus did the cleaning.....after zohor rested for a while...at about 3 pm, we returned home....only to hear that the children wanted to bowl again...last time....come on guys...we already went bowling twice this week....but umi had a soft heart so off we went to Aneka ...abah babysat alin n ayish....arrived at Aneka..( sempat nampak Cacti5000 dok merenung sorang diri dlm kereta)
....after bowling, we had chicken chop...terbang lagi duit..but kerana anak2 umi tak kisah......

then umi called abah coz we wanted to send akak balik KMK,but to no avail...abah must be sleeping....already 6 something...so umi had to drive all to Changlun...berat la Kembara aku....anak2 dah besar panjang...mujur kereta tak cunggit....

returned to Jitra n they said they were hungry again...ya tuhan...jenama apa perut depa ni....so we stopped at pasar malam....umi almost collapsed ....letih bebenor....
arrived home dah magrib....the head was pounding...headache maaaaaa......

then at 9 along called n talked to bob for about an hour....by the time along talked to umi....umi dah sakit kepala tersangat2...pity along as umi could not entertain him anymore....thousand apology along....next week ok.....

itulah....because of my love towards my children, i am willing to go extra miles to make them happy....hope they understand and learn from that....

now Bob is back at DQ...umi can fill the emptiness he left us.....1 week was too short....hope he will make the best decision for his own future.......

Bob's verdict

alhamdulillah, finally the day we have been waiting for arrived, bringing good news about bob's Spm result. he got 6As 3b and 2c..now quite difficult to tell as the new grading is different...anyway, umi n abah syukur as he managed to score in some subjects...now the task is trying to apply for any suitable courses....

umi does not want to compare his results and akak's or along's because umi firmly believes that everyone has his or her own strengths or weaknesses. it is not fair to judge a person by how many As he gets....

umi thinks what really matters here is how each takes the course of life in his own way...depending on his interest and ability.
umi has seen the plus or minus points in umi's children so alhamdulillah umi can accept whatever being given by Allah as umi believes each person is born with his fate decided...it is just we do not know when or how we will get it...if we always confident that Allah knows the best, there is nothing that will make us sad....

it is just how the children take the challenge in their life that matters....hopefully, they will always bear in their mind that whatever move they make will decide their future....

umi prays that good and promising bright future will be the rewards of ummi's children's life...insyaallah

BOWLING LAGI

gambar lagi

first time ke stesen keretapi

lega.......

Finally, today i feel better, after ISO stuff is over,the college does not get any NCR, we can now breathe easilly....i am happy to hear all friends chat excitedly, all kinds of nonsense and jokes being shared, the whole unit is very lively, those who disappeared yesterday suddenly make an appearance......so the whole scenario helps ease our life..at least for today.
next week would be different i believe...but should be more managble....

Imagine everyone gritted their teeth for the whole two days of audit...scared if they would be chosen..grilled and marked for any possible mistakes that would affect the certification. nobody wanted to be the black sheep....but how many of us are actually scared of being interviewed by the two angles later, in the grave and in the hereafter....how many are actually ready....really, really ready....
why aren't we that scared ?( i know i am not that ready)if we put a serious thoughts, surely we will not have the heart to laugh, what more to make jokes if we realize the most gruelling Q n A session with Mungkar n Nakir...the sight of them is enough to make us turn black......

so i am advising myself to be more prepared for this particular iso....tomorrow, no , now should be better than a minute ago as i do not know when i will be called to meet The Greatest, Allah S.W.T.......

cameron n melaka

saja umi post gambar adik n ayish...masih ada yang sayang
dua sis ni memang minah posing...nak beli banyak2 tak dak duit
umi n eman depan Hotel Brinchang...dah tinggi anak umi...baru 15 years....
this mom also tak mau kalah posing...ni dah letih menapak kat melaka
semua tgh excited naik River Cruise kat Sg melaka......best gak sceneries dia.....mural banyaak

Pendang memories

tenang kan bila tengok sunset....tu yg umi suka p tasik ni....seakan2 hilang semua problem

Ni abah very excited dpt first catch...besar punya ikan....

umi dah merajuk tak dapat ikan so posing aje