Lesson From a Death

Salam,
after returning from kelantan umi was very occupied.first, the minute we arrived, our neighbour, pak cik malik informed us that his father in law just passed away so the nite started with tahlil n the next day the burial..then 2 more nites of tahlil. the death somehow indirectly brought the neighbours together..after being so bz with our own life so much so that we did not get the chance to chat even for a minute. we realized that we did not meet as often as before when our children were still young.
so we have decided to have a feast to unite us again like before. umi still remember when we had kenduri, kacau bubur asyura, birthday parties, hariraya gathering quite often at umi's compound...how we were really close but now .....so we must do something fast.

Then umi busied myself marking the UPS papers...adui...started marking n fell asleep...umi sedar i can doze off easily now...must be the age factor....

Now umi n family are in Pendang Lake Resort..........what? again....well the story is like this...abah booked for today....then abah terbaca surat inviting abah to officiate Kem Motivasi UPSR PPD Kubang Pasu...anjuran bersama ngan tokey resort ni...so pucuk dicita ulam mendatang....abah just came back from the event and all of us are famished....lapar giler sementara menunggu...

now umi already got the chance to drive Innova n masuk pekan a.setar lagi....best bawa kereta besar ni...terus rasa Kembara umi slow sangat......tapi tak pa...umi has to be brave coz kesian kat abah kena ferry us wherever we go...now umi can help...it seems that now umi leh buat banyak benda....except isi minyak kereta...tak tahan bau petrol weh......

Menjejak Kasih

Thia morning, 25th July we went to see Mak Jah again, promised to have breakfast at her house..at 11am only we arrived at her house. kesian lama dia tunggu..the grandchildren, Abe n Nurin skipped school today as they wanted to play with alin n ayish...we x be there long..after salam2 sayang, we left Pengkalan Chepa and headed towards Pendek.

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Ni ha abah infront of Pak Cik Jaafar...ala ala bapa angkat abah.in 1988 when abah started his teaching service at SMK Vokasional P.Chepa, abah stayed there for a while. pak cik Jaafar, a retired teacher is umi's and abah's friend's father ( Nor Fazilah who is currently teaching at SMK Tanjung Pauh)...The couple is very kind and accomodating n we can never forget their kindness..so it is only right that we always visit them whenever we go to Kelantan. Tak sempat amik gambar ngan depa lak...depan rumah pun cukuplah..depa jamu buah langsat, rambutan n manggis yg ditanam di tepi rumah...bagi wak balik lagi...aduh terimakasih pak cik n mak cik.




At 2 pm we arrived in Pasir Mas lak...visited pak Chik Idris n Wife, Kak Mah...our neighbour when we stayed at Cabang Tiga P.Chepa from 1988 till 1994..they used to run a restaurant behind our house n along, akak, bob and atih were their charges when umi n abah nak gi shopping di KB...roti canai, laksa n lauk2 from their Restoran Linda used to be our orders...kami amat berterima kasih kepada mama, baba, cik ngah, lina, linda, man, sham, aishah for being our close neighbours...so every year, we would visit them....now ramai dah kawin kecuali man n linda...nanti kami p lagi kalau dijemput....

Wow what a bz day ...we only left Pasir Mas at 3.30 n the journey back was very tiring..with the heavy rain accompanying us..umi only took the wheel from Panglima Bayu( Rantau Panjang) until an hour later...dan abah took a short nap...

By 7pm we arrived in Gerik...ish perjalanan masih panjang ...kami tak berani nak teruskan..nanti malam payah lak...so now we put a nite at SMZ Hotel in Gerik.Insyaallah tomorrow we will go home......

GANU DEPA

Ysterday ,umi went to visit mak jah.rindu tul kat dia.turned out kak bi already got married in march n now pregnant.umi told mak jah that we planned to go to Tganu, sekali diapun nak ikut.so at 12 we set for ganu. aduh letih..we arrived at about 4, straight to pasar Payang perabih duit..gile tgk kain2 batik.cacti n ustazah must buy one k.
then to Masjid kristal,first time u solat there...syahdu rasa..umi prayed for all d good things for family.by 7 oredi on the way back to Kelantan.our real plan was to stay overnite but with mak jah n bibi, sure tak leh,depa nak balik...so abah had to drive us back...kesian letih abah.at 11pm baru we all sampai...we slept at Sejahtera Inn , malas nakkacau mak jah...dia pun bukan kuat sangat...

satgi p breakfast at her house...belasah nasi dagang,kerabu n berlauk lagi....then kami decide le nak terus balik ke or singgah kat perak lak.alang2 dah musafir ni .....

Gi Kelate

Today,abah, umi, along,adik,alin n ayish went(dah sampai) to Kelantan..we arrived at about 5.30pm n stayed at Ombak Inn in Wakaf Che Yeh..Those who r familiar with the place surely understand why this town is so popular especially at nite. umi just came back from shopping...giler n rambang mata weh...so many ntah apa2 sold here...ikut hati suma nak borong...but one surprising fact is that wherever i turned, i heard the sound of Kedahan...so many came shopping here.

But apa yg bagi umi marah sikit ialah peniaga2 yg cekik darah...amboi dgr slang kita orang utara teruih dia penaik harga...maklum umi dah lama tak kecek kelate so memang dia kapak kita sungguh.nak bagi senang umi p beli gerai yg dah letak tanda harga...

marah camna pun umi tetap gak beli...apatah lagi abah dan bawa balik alin n ayish ke bilik hotel so umi bertiga merayau sakan....by 11pm baru we all balik.

setakat ini dulu update umi especially utk bob n akak yg sedang pulun belajar .....miss u 2..but now dah tak leh p sekali dah.....insyaallah len kali no.....

Syukur

Syukur alhamdulillaha Along lulus untuk tahun ke3 ini..memang mendebarkan menanti keputusan peperiksaan...silap haribulan kena balik ke Mesir semula.But this time along, dengan izin Allah lulus dgn keputusan yg baik sikit dari tahun lepas.

Umi memanjatkan syukur yg tidak terhingga kerana doa kami sekeluarga dimakbulkan. Memang dah jadi adat along akan minta kami doakan dia setiap hari dia ambik periksa dan alhamdulillah amalan ini menjadi ikutan adik-adik krana mereka sedar betapa besarnya doa dari ibubapa...

Umi dan abah sebenarnya tidak brilmu tinggi..setakat hangat-hangat suam sahaja...tetapi kami tinggikan dengan penyerahan sepenuhnya kepada Allah...iklas dalam kerja buat....sepenuh harapan dan tumpuan kepada rahmat dan ikhsan dari Maha Pencipta.

Moga banyak lagi kejayaan akan ditempa oleh anak-anak umi di masa hadapan, insyaallah.

yahoo cuti

21 - 31/7 is our mid term break...wah so happy n umi already has some plans for the whole week. Among others are:

21/7 - tend to my garden...do some weeding n sprucing...sure my roses will be smiling, opening up their petals to see me ....after being neglected for quite some time.

22-25/7 - Pengkalan Chepa..here i come...wanna take along back to see her first babysitter.....kak jah who took a very good care of him n 3 other siblings while umi n abah worked in Kelantan from 1988 until 1994.....it is a must for us to go back to visit her as her service can never be repaid...she was like a mother to them.

26 - 31/7 - every morning umi n along wanna try fishing at Darulaman Lake...that day umi was so disappointed so this time nak bayar geram...wait for me lampan tasik..

The same week will also see me doing my shopping for the kids' hariraya clothes....yg mana umi leh beli, capailah dulu....anak2 ni especially boys tak kisah sangat apa saja pilihan umi...no tema tema, lemas rasanya pakai baju warna sama.

Oppps don't forget jogging to reduce weight n to be ready for fasting month..so mana2 yg kena bayar tu insyaallah akan diselesaikan even though actually umi would prefer fasting while at work...if kat rumah asyik nak buka peti ais saja...........

So, gitulah sedikit sebanyak plan umi...maybe not as interesting as others but for umi cukuplah..........alamak lupa lak ...sambe2 tu kena mark papers UPS 1 bebudak...jgn tak buat...........

Freedom

This morning, Along arrived from KL..abah fetched him at about 5.30...from his story n sms from Bob n Akak, it really shows that they had a ball of a time, being away from parents, free to roam KL n went bowling and eating-eating....

It suddenly dawned on me that the time has come for my children to lead their own path of life, away from the lingering clutching of the two parents...i have to let them go, create their own story, weave their own soul searching life and find their own niche....

Frankly, i am not the least worried about them for i sincerely believe that i have given them enough do's n don'ts to guide n prepare them for the best n the worst....it is my deep understanding that they will respect n live by that.

I'm also open for anything that would happen coz in this rat race world, u must expect the unexpected n u must acquire the knowledge on how to deal with this situation.Insyaallah, with this guidance n prayers from all, they will find the true meaning of successful life now n in the Hereafter.

My hubby n i will just monitor from afar....providing whatever necessary to ensure their paths are not too complicated, their destiny not too far reaching n their happiness is forever enjoyed n sustained.

TO ALONG, AKAK n BOB.....have a safe journey in this life...........

If Only

Yesterday evening my neighbour invited us to join Yaasin recital at his house, praying for his father-in-law's recovery from sickness( water in the brain)...he is now hospitalized n the children are taking turn looking after him. even his son who is working in LA returns to offer his obligation...
i was really touched by the sincere kindness in them, sacrificing their valued time n money just for their beloved father...what a lucky man he is....

Then i think about my own mom, who has nobody to REALLY look after her..to accompany her when she needs the help....it seems everybody manages to find unacceptable excuse not to come home...a mere phone call on Friday nite is the only thing they can do....
If only my brother n sister are willing to spend even a short weekend to be by mom's side, i am absolutely sure she will be on cloud nine....

Then again, i can only pray n pray that one day, their heart will soften and see the beauty of taking care of their aging, fragile mom....it is not that i grumble because i always go (insyaallah n alhamdulillah)....because i live nearby but actually distance should never be the main reason. if u love someone dear enough, all the obstacles are merely swift wind brushing over your delicate face.....

how i can only wish before it is too late...............

Airmata seorang ibu

Mungkin sekarang, pada saat ini ibuku sedang bersendirian, mengutip detik2 waktu kesaorangan, menanti kepulangan anak-anak..yg entah bila nak menziarah ...

Mungkin ibuku sedang menangisi kesunyian hidup bersaorangan tanpa bapaku.mengenang kembali tika waktu dia masih cergas, bergerak ke sana ke sini tanpa halangan, sedangkan sekarang untuk mengatur langkah pun dia terpaksa dibantu tongkat...untuk keluar dari rumah ,jauh sekali....

Mungkin ibuku sedang membilang hari, mengira masa anak-anak akan pulang lagi menjelang Aidil fitri.....Aku doakan doa ibu dimakbulkan....amin

Friday

Aduh ari ni kerja lagi..dah la tu...sampai 5.30 lak...kesian kat kami..sepatutnya ada d rumah relax sikit, jogging ke, jenguk pokok bunga ke, mancing ke....tapi sebab kena ganti cuti raya semua kena mai....
dah la tu...ari ni cuma ada 1 kelas saja at 10.45...pastu buat kerja kerja marking papers...kalau wak mai baju pun boleh lipat habis....jahit labuci bajupun elok gak...

walaupun badan ada di tempat kerja, hati ada di rumah...risau baju sekolah depa dah basuh ke, kasut alin dah basuh ke...apa depa nak makan ari ni sebab tadi umi tak sempat nak masak...semalam p gelek bola bowling balik dah letih...cadang nak buat gulai ketam.....malam nanti la kot.

apapun kerja hari Jumaat ni memang amat mengecewakan...........

Argument

Hmmmmm...really dont know what happened to umi today...while having breakfast with friends...(umi makan sambal Paul the sotong)..as always we would take about students n this time students' listening test...one good friend of mine said she wanted to give full mark to her students but she would find mistakes that would give her the reason not to give...i beg to differ...how could you be so serious by finding any tiny miny mistake just to deny the mark that the student deserves...whatever benefit of the doubt must be given to him/her...

Of course when seniors argued, the others would back off....suara dah naik so umi had to cool down...jokingly i said...well agaknya aku laser ari ni sebab makan sambal tumis Paul......

Then again, i really do not like to penalize the students for small errors...what more if the mistakes do not change the meaning...just give what they deserve..jgn kedekut sangat, nanti rezeki pun payah.....itulah sedikit sebanyak nasihat umi...tapi tak diterima......

Well, maybe this is my weakness for being a mother, my motherly instinct sometimes clouds my judgment...but why must be so strict as if that would change the whole thing in their life....

i could be wrong but i believe if you show some sympathy and empathy....your students will not fail u...nor would you fail them.

so far my friend still sucks....but umi relax aje.....biarkan dia cool dulu.....esok kacau dia len..........or umi should posa so tak banyak cakap....

Bowling Competition

Ha ha ha...yesterday umi joined English Unit Bowling Competition at Aneka...guess what?...this old lady managed to secure 2nd place for individual and also team...not bad eh for a lady of my age.....
Congrats to the organizer, Mdm Haslisa, also my teammate beside Yanti n not to forget our new KU Mr Ash for the success of the competition. Actually it is not the placing or present that matter but the comradeship that we form that actually lays a strong foundation to our lasting friendship....
we let our hair down and just play for the fun of it....i think that what makes our unit a special one....to those who missed this...rugi...insyaallah next time kot.

Jum memancing

yesterday, umi n family went to Darulaman lake...nak mancing...tengok2 ramai orang sure they had a competition...so umi also joined them...bukan selalu dapat peluang camni...
the place was crowded with anglers who came from i don't know where but judging from the scattered makeshift tents, the equipments they had, surely indicated those were seasoned, senior, experience people...umi ni ada rod yg sempoi aje....
at 9 am the competition kicked off.....umi started snapping photos..tak kisah walaupun ramainya mat mat ikan....peduli apa...umi dah tua....
Then one after another got the fish...1kg, 2kg....umi did not get anything.....
waited
and waited
and waited
and umi got bored
so we left the place
headed towards kedai makan
makan pulut ikan masin lagi best.

apa nak kisah umi tak dapat ikan sebab............UMI TAK MANCING PUN...BUAT MALU GUNA KAIL BUDAK2......
AYISH PUJUK UMI: JANGANLAH SEDIH UMI.....NANTI KITA MANCING LAIN NO...........YE LA TU AYISH.

GERAM SANGAT....FOR LUNCH UMI MASAK IKAN MASAM MANIS...IKAN BELI KAT PASAR RM15...

ALONG BALIK YE

SYUKUR along sampai semalam at Kepala Batas Airport at about 9pm..we greeted him happily even though he did not bring us anything...what matters is he is safely here, joining our ramadhan n insyaallah syawal....
one obvious thing about him is that he really gained weight...seangkatan ngan umi gak nampaknya...maklum makan banyak minyak sapi weh....
everybody is happy, n at the same time become more conscious of our doing....he he he...dia tu pasai agama ni mantop sikit...kami ni yg celm celup orang kata....

hari ni kenduri cheese cake...bukan umi buat.......beli..........tak kan tak tau.....

POSA

Akhirnya umi berjaya memulakan puasa ganti yg tertunggak semenjak lama ....amat lama...dan amat memalukan.....dlm hal posa ni umi memang teruk habis.....lemah selemah lemahnya.....
namun demikian umi kuatkan hati demi membayar hutang yang amat banyak....bayangkan umi telah melahirkan 4 orang anak dalam bulan puasa so proses membayarnya amat memeritkan....umi mengaku setulus hati....bukan kerana umi kuat makan sangat tapi ntah...
bilamana umi kena bangun awal at 5 sediakan sahur kat atih n adik so umipun turut serta....best pulak rasanya....nantila umi pujuk abah join sekali...abah pun amat perlu posa sebagai acara mengurus badan....(tapi time berbuka habis segala)
apapun umi berdoa agar Allah memberikan umi n family kekuatan untuk bersedia menghadapi segala cabaran sebelum menjelangnya the best month of Ramadhan....doakan umi yer...........

Family day

For the first time umi joined abah's friends on PPD Kubang Pasu Family day at Pantai Merdeka...last time they had gathering in Kelantan n pulau Pangkor umi could not go as bz with work so this time umi had no excuse....
We arrived at about 5 pm, then joined the sukaneka (telematch)ayish collected sweets...adik carried water on head, alin filled in the glass with water, abah n eman main2 tali, umi n atih threw ballon filled with water...ntah apa-apa...we lost all....umi realized we were not very competitive compared to others...suma maintain segan malu gitu.....anak-anak len aggresive .....

at nite, we had barbeque by the beach...the rain n storm almost blew away the tent but we waited ...basah kuyup suma.....ha ha ha ....abah got the present for being the COOLEST person in the office....memang cayala......

the next day, we had fishing competition...but umi x joined sebab itu yg baling2 punya....umi lum belajar lagi.....sekorpun tak dapat....by 12 we left....stopped at The Store....men boling lagi n won again....janji nak beli hadiah kat umi but abah decided to go home....ala.................

apa pun sebenarnya umi amat tidak gumbira pada hari itu sebab semasa dalam perjalanan, umi mendapat berita yg suami kawan baik umi, huda meninggal...umi terkilan tak leh p menziarah...

Gemuk gemuk gemuk

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....umi rasa umi dah gemuk gedempul...padan muka suka dok ngusik abah sangat....sekarang dah naik 56kg...ntah2 dlm 2 3 hari ni naik lagi....dulu 50-53 aje...itulah unit BI asyik buat makan aje...umipun tumpang dok galak masak pagi2 terus suka makan sepanjang hari...posa lum gak lagi....
dulu tak la terasa terkejut sangat sebab masih maintain gitu...tapi la...satu hari anak2(ntah yg mana satu) tanya umi nak dapat bb lak ke?oh amat obvious ke perut ni????
sayang oi umi dah tak mau lagi...yg dok adapun tak terligan.....
camna yer? nak p jogging asyik tak dak masa. kat Tasik Darulaman ari tu rasa macam nak tergolek jatuh dlm tasik dah....setakat dok berkebun peluh-peluh remaja saje...nak main badminton depan rumah pun sparing partner tak mau.....gimana ye?

ni kena posa ni, ni kena posa ni......minggu depan aci kot....tapi niat kena betui...jgn pasai nak kurus. itu kesan sampingan aje...

apapun umi dah terasa berat mulut nak ngomel kat abah sebab la umi pun dah dua kali lima...mujur abah tu good sangat...kalau tidak sure dia dah kata.....haaaaaaaa dulu kata kat orang , now tengok diri tu dulu...tapi abah baik sangat......