ntah apa apa

semiggu dua ni hidup umi cempera cam apa...byk hal tak siap....chapter 2 ntah dok kat mana....nak contact supervisor pun takut sbb tak siap...kerjapun ala kadar aje...balik rumah terus siap p rumah tok...now kak eta dah balik,umi kena tidur rumah tok la...takkan nak suruh pak lang lak...dia baru balik mekah....persiapan nak buka sekolah tak selesai lagi....alin nak kena p rumah mak dia gak pas sekolah nanti so umi kena cari van lak nak antar dia ke rumah mak dia....la bukan senang nak cari orang...nak bagi balik rumah pun takut sbb adik tentu balik lewat sbb dia dak darjah 6...pikiak sampai putus urat tengkuk pun tak leh selesai..dulu ingat bob leh jaga tapi since dia dah tak ada, plan pun berubah.
geram sgt umi mai ke Pendang , mancing lagi ari ni..25 dec..cuti christmas...tapi umi cuma dpt 3 ekor aje....kalah ngan adik n atih....memang hati tak senang ,ikanpun tak mau lekat......nak mai ni pun tak selesa sbb kena tinggai tok....malam ni mak ndak la jaga lak.dia lum pernah lagi.......
umi berdoa agar tok akan sembuh...la pun kaki dia dah kurang bengkak.....mailah kita pakat berdoa utk tok........

BOB's registration

Ni la antara tempat yg ada di Darul Quran...tasik tepi masjid...very cooling effect...hope depa ada aktiviti memancing beside canoing....sure bob suka.
From afar we could see the hall...kena park jauh sikit so menapak ke hall for registration and opening .....
we were so happy to meet our long lost friend, Shima and Shah....Shah used to teach with abah at SM Vokasional Pengkalan Chepa back in 1980's ....they also sent their first daughter there...memang dah ditakdir kami akan berjumpa...a nice and friendly couple indeed. Shah is pelawak Abon's brother.....
After bob got his room which he will share with a boy from kelantan, we left the place..it was already Zohor time...we wanted bob to get some rest before he started the program at Asar .by 9 pm , we arrived home. bob sent a message saying that this week all handphones would be kept by the urusetia orientasi....kesian bob tapi k gak...biar dia concentrate on the program....we pray bob will do fine there....and learn as much as possible in 18 months..........GOOD LUCK BOB DEAR...we sure miss u.......take care....

bob ke dq

Saturday, we left the house at about 8am...stopped for breakfast at medan selera tanah merah. Continued the journey and stopped at Carefour coz bob wanted to get a new towel and bedsheet....upon reaching Changkat Jering exit suddenly the right back tire of innova burst and abah made a sudden stop....wah apa dah jadi....puntured tire weh.....luckilly PLUS people came and help to change the tyre but advised us to stop at R & R changkat jering....they pumped more air and then we took Taiping exit and spent about 2 hours at a workshop.....at about 3 we continued our journey after paying rm 395 to the mechanic....we made another stop at Sg Perak for lunch n prayer. At 6 something we took tanjung Malim exit and got lost on the way...and then made a detour to kuala kubu baru which was about 10 min drive ...almost maghrib time, we reached the town...so dark and strange...abah was so exhauted so umi, bob and eman tried to find a hotel room....luckilly bob met his senior who is studying at DQ..he told me where to find Melati Hotel....we managed to get 2 rooms...not very comfy but okla.......

sibuk giler

Isnin: Lunch time kami berenam buat kenduri pas PTK 4 kat kekwan english lecturer kat Anjung Rest. then terus attend taklimat ptk terbaru ..nak buat projek rintis lak. umi kena jadi pemantau lak. tambah kerja lagi..tapi kalau komplen nanti orng kata DG48 comes with responsibility...habis selama ni tak buat ke?
Bob dapat tawaran darul quran.kami terus ke sek dia.tanya dia nak ke idak. dia nak fikir dulu.kami apa2pun tak pa.

Selasa: berleter panjang kat student H1E3....kemarin depa buat dek aja dlm kelas. kata letih apa teacher tak letih ke? semua diam selama 1 jam umi berleter...sesuatu yg umi tak pernah buat tapi terpaksa sebab student klas ni tak berapa serious.....bila org ngajar depa dok buat assignment lagi....geram tul...depa ingat umi ni blind ke....

Rabu: P pasar malam,beli makanan kat tok....balik p bawa bbdak main bowling lak...kesian kat bob bagi la dia chance main last sebelum kena kurung di DQ.....bagi dia menang lagi.....

Khamis: umi amik cuti rehat khas yg ke7...yg last for this year.....bawa bob p buat Medical checkup...dua jam di KMC n paid Rm80....balik n terus bawa bbdak p mancing di pendang lagi...ini kali pertama taiko x dapat ikan langsung.maklum mengail tgh hari buta...kat kawasan luar lak...cuma adik sorang dpt ikan....balik kami bagi ikan kat pengasuh ayish....
abah lak p rombongan ke Thailand..dia p juga walaupun umi dah try psycho abah.....memang teringin tul abah...smpai sanggup rakam final bolasepak msia vs vietnam.
petang ni doa akhir tahun dan maghrib doa awal tahun Muharam 1431. Semoga tahun ini membawa seribu kerahmatan dan kejayaan dan keberkatan...AMIN......

Sabtu: kami sekeluarga akan bertolak ke Kuala Kubu Baru, Slgor......entah nak tidur kat mana lum decide lagi.....ahad baru register dan pastu kami akan terus balik .....doakan dipermudahkan segala urusan.....

rentetan peristiwa

9th Dec was eman's 14th birthday...we had a simple celebration at tok's house...then on 11th we went to Pendang lake resort again.....spent a nite there and got 30 fish...of course taiko herself got the biggest and the most.....which made abah, eman n bob green with envy...see how frustrated they were......tonite we are having a barbeque outside the house.....umi tak lalu makan....bagi depa dah le.....umi dapat letih n dehydration n rasa2 nak demam.

cerita ikan lagi

Pulun tul bebudak ni....maklum tak pernah tangkap ikan....

Ini BOb dok risau sebab tak dapat lagi...orang yg terakhir dapat ikan.....kesian

Ni sorang lagi pulun....posing saja tau....

Akhirnya, dekat senja menjelang baru adik dapat sekor

atih dapat kecik saja tapi seronok ngalahkan taiko iaitu umi yg dapat 10 ekor......mana leh lawan expert.

Pendang Mania 2

2nd hariraya haji we were at pendang lake resort again...the fishing mania continued for 2 days....we went crazy when we got 26 lampam fish....seekorpun kami tak rasa....dah dibuat pekasam.the excitement was contagious.....

ribut

Since tok was admitted last Sunday, umi's life has been very bz..immediately after class, umi rush home and fetch children and ita to KMC....spend about an hour with tok who is recuperating, then rush back to buy dinner and arrive only at about 9 something...the house chores are mainly done by atih, eman and adik....abah is in Pulau Pangkor.....
last nite ita accompanied tok so umi had to look after her 2 children....memang riuh rendah rumah ngan depa....by 12 midnite umi dah collapse....
today, umi will visit tok again....she is ok now, waiting to be discharged....but umi wants tok to have a good rest and care first......

kronologi kehidupan

Raya 1 : awal pagi teh and anak2 tetiba sampai at 3 am. umi tidur kat rumah mak....nasibla mereka kena berkampung dlm keadaan tidak selesa...depa x habar nak balik....petang raya umi balik ke yan antar mak ngah n pak long....mlm singgah kat Sentosa..akak sibuk nak beli handset baru.

Raya 2: awal pagi abah p tolong pak cik malik korban lembu kat taman siswa...lunch time kami dah at pendang Lake Resort...check in and after lunch terus ke tepi lake ....start pancing hingga maghrib...got 13 fish ....suma dapat merasa tarikan ikan...excited giler...

raya 3. sesudah subuh kami dah kat tepi tasik...pancing lagi n dapat lagi 13 ekor...then teh call saying tok penat n dia nak ke KMC....kami balik n singgah just in time tok kena warded..ICU...kesian tok....tapi she was ok...breathing was supported by oxygen ....mlm pas maghrib kami balik...tak leh jaga....

isnin: tengahari ramai p visit tok ...mak teh nak balik ke Sg Buloh gak...anak dia SPm katanya...umi tak kata apa...biarlah...kak ita now tinggal ngan umi ...dia nak jaga tok bulan ilni.

selasa: semalam tok kata mungkin dia akan ke wad biasa..now tgh tunggu doktor yg nak check jantung...paru2 tok masuk air dan affect jantung......tunggu dan lihat.....doakan tok sihat.

Pendang Lake Mania

Ummi joined all english lecturers and about 100 students in Language camp in pendang Lake resort. All went well, congrts to Mdm Hasliza the coordinator and Mr Shaharin the camp commandent who did a good job...plus all other lecturers.

but what ummi wanted to highlight here is the chance that umi got....fishing by the lake....first day umi borrowed one of the angler's fishing rod...managed to get 2 fish...the second day umi brazed the rain and stood for 3 hours and got 3 fish...some people might think that was crazy but for ummi that was passion...it has been 20 long years since i stopped fishing...it was after umi and abah returned from Canada in 1986.....after that we were busy with children.......
so during our 3 day stay there, umi memang lupa diri.....the fish even appeared in my dream....gila weh but i enjoyed it.

umi planned to go there again on second raya haji.....doakan

KMC and SPM

yesterday evening ,just after umi arrived from work, bob called saying that he could not bear the pain anymore. at 6 we went to smkak to take him to KMC...pity him. maghrib time, we were there and at 8 something the doctor cleaned his bisul ( ntah apa orang putih kata) . we waited for about 30 minutes..all done and the bill came for RM188....tomorrow and saturday, he must go for redressing. at 9.30 we were at a stall at Shahab Perdana.....hungry like crazy...the order came very late....alin and ayish ate the cake and crackers while waiting for the food.
at 10 we sent bob back to school.
upon arriving home, atih and umi got ready to go to tok's house...pity she was alone.
after prayer and preparing the fish to be fried tomorrow morning, we slept soundly...
at 6 we went home and got ready for work. atih followed umi. at 1 , we are going to pendang Lake Resort for language camp.

Bob Got Bisul

Bob got bisul at his ankle....macam2 kejadian before he sits for SPM tomorrow. we rushed to his school this evening to give him the medicine...hope he will be fine.
bob asked the blessing from abah.minta ampun banyak2 bob......

I know what i did

early morning i was about to leave mak's house when suddenly one hen + 5 chicks entered the house and made a mess with their dropping....i was close to mad chasing after them...it was already 6.12 and i was still running and catching the chicks....amboi pandai n cepat tul these chicken.
upon arriving, i just got ready for work...no time to prepare breakfast....roti gardenia choklat la jawabnya.
at college, time was spent as always...2 hours of classes and some hours surfing for info regarding using reflective journal in research.
at 4, returned and spent some time with children before speeding off to medan selera jitra for chicken rice to be given to my niece diana and her friend from Unimap who will spend a few days at tok's....lega sikit as i can spend the nite at home.
after cleaning the house, cooking rice and frying pekasam for mom i left and stopped by to get some burgers for my children.....suma makan instant.....
i felt my legs wobbling aready...letih ma....but still had to entertain ayish n alin.after isyak, recited alquran for a while....n praying for Bob's success in her Spm that will start this wed 18th nov....i have my confidence in him...insyaallah he will do fine..i can only pray for his success..he will have to do the studying. i know he is feeling the pressure of having to perform like along..that is really a burden but deep inside i know he is capable of creating another history in the family....
now is almost 11pm ...the children are already sleeping...the end of Sunday...i hope my sleep will be a peaceful one tonite as i really need the most waited sleep.....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

hebat dugaan ini

today, early morning umi went home after making sure tok had everything. time flew so fast when umi was doing home task....then a t 10.30, umi, atih n alin were already at aneka foodcourt n it was x open yet...people were bz bowling n some we lining up outside cinema, wanting to watch the release of movie 2012....at 11 smthing dr fauziah came...we discussed for about 2 hours...

then we went home.bought lunch for all....after that abah went to dewan wawasan...ada anugrah cemerlang.after asar we went to see bob n eman...beli merry brown kat depa.....lapar tul bbdak tu...what more it rained heavilly.......then we rushed home just in time to join abah sending akak to kmk.at 6.40 we returned home n arrived at 7.15.

after maghrib umi, atih n ayish went to tok's....pity tok was alone...pak ndak went home already.
we only had maggi mee .....malas nak mkn nasi....

after isya', umi was ready to blog....then along called....umi talked to along while updating this entry..mlm ni relax la sikit....malas nak study dah....

bomoh

this morning we all went jogging..many people were there at darulaman park...umi as always dared not complete the whole track....baik relax tgk fish....alin,atih n ayish accompanied abah...after that we went for breakfast....bought asam pedas for tok...sure tok hungry already..at 10 we arrived at tok's and sure enough tok terus tanya: awat lambat..aku makan nasi sejuk........baru pukul sepuluh dia dah lapar....kesian... then they grilled fish bought at mak cik yah's..
abah went jumaat prayer..umi took a nap sat...so sleepy n tired...after lunch abah, umi, atih n alin went to fetch mak chik yah...we went to titi haji idris...cari rumah ustaz tok bomoh...mak cik yah said her father was fine after gettting the treatment there...umi guessed it was not wrong to try...we arrived at about 3.30...many people were already there....at 5pm only our turn came...the ustaz said...tok ada problem with her urat..masuk darah..banyak lendir...paru2 ada air...yg lain tak ada apa2....so he gave penawar and ubat...daun sirihla...(betel leaves)

at almost maghrib we arrived home.....then went to tok's...then abah took akak,atih,and adik back to our house....then abah returned to tok's....tonite we sleep here....after isyak ummi applied the pounded sirih to tok's legs...now she is sleeping then only umi and abah bz in front of our computer.....ayish is still active, alin is already sleeping.
umi prays tok will be fine...at least she can walk.now the size of her hip doubles her body....macam belon...kesian...umi hanya mencuba...moga Allah memakbulkan usaha ini. Amin.

RENTETAN PERISTIWA

6 Nov (Satuday) Alin joined her kindergarten's educational trip to AS. At nite, we sent pak lang to kepala batas airport. sedih tengok pak lang p sorang diri.....moga ibadahnya diterima...insyaallah.

7 Nov (Sunday)Umi started teaching sem 2....12 hours this time..... i got different students this time. good as i could get to know new students.

8 Nov (Monday)abah left for Penang. umi has been spending nites at tok's for quite some time.

9 nov (Tuesday) headache, pounding and umi x sleep at tok's...took pain killer and panadol my .memang lalok abis.....alin said to ayish
" come, lets play outside...kesian umi x larat".....umi syahdu dgr.

10 Nov - (Wednesday)still bz ..especially finishing my chapter i to be e-mailed to my supervisor. Went home at 5.30pm...pak mat was waiting outside to fix the leaking pipe to water tank of umi's room....rain started heavilly... maghrib time he left....umi was so worried as umi had to go to eman's school. he wanted cookies and whatnot...he got a camp to attend on thursday. on the way atih called tok...she said...tok penat so nampak gaya kena tidur umah tok lagi. After sending the stuff , we stopped at Tanah Merah stall...lapar giler.....we ordered nasi goreng ayam....alin already sleeping in the car.
at 10 pm we went to tok's house.....she ok aje....sekali lagi umi terkena....besalah. tok kata nak makan ikan pekasam so umi pun goreng lah....kalau tidak pagi esok kena buat...my esyes were partly close......almost 12 baru leh tidur.
4.30 pagi umi terjaga dgr sok sek sok sek....rupa2nya tok dok buka tin biskut....umi nak tergelak ... i was wide open...so i listen to sinar fm.....lagu2 lama..terkenang zaman kat Kingston dulu.at 4.50 tertidur lak...5.30 am i woke up and cooked rice for tok...at 6 am umi,atih, adik, alin and ayish went home....kesian depa kena bangun awai.

11. N0v ( Thursday)
Tonite, abah will come back. umi dah nak collapse....insyaallah leh la relax sikit as tomorrow is a holiday. thinking of going jogging at tasik darulaman...let abah shed some kilos....ntah banyak mana abah gains 4 days being at the hotel.

Alahai mak

umi spent the nite..rainy nite at tok's....kat kampung ni sejuk.best tidur....at subuh tok dah gaduh suruh masak nasi...dia dah lapar. smilingly umi cooked the rice before praying....kesian tok dari ramadhan lagi sampai la nak makan sok saja.....memang ada ciri2 kebudak2an tok ni...dia asyik fikir ttg makan aje.....kuih lagi, nasi lagi....
apapun umi amat bersyukur sbb tok masih ada selera nak makan. imagine if one day she refuses to eat....i would cry....now she wants to eat....boleh lah asalkan jgn yg bahaya...tapi tok ni makanan yg berangin, sejuk tu la yg dia nak....nangka, kacang bendi, nenas.....umi susah hati kalau tok sakit...yg susah umi gak....tapi kalau x bagi makan nanti tok kecik hati lak....umi doakan agar tok sihat walaupun dia masih penat......sebab tu tok tak leh jalan ke dapur kalau tidak .....
hari sabtu pak lang akan berangkat ke mekah...sampai juga hajat pak lang. dlm 2 bulan ni dialah yg dok jaga tok...umi puji pak lang ...dia cukup sabar layan kerenah tok....apa tok kata dia gelak saja....dia tak penah ambik hati...kalau umi memang naik angin gak....
bila pak lang tak dak ....umi lah yg kena teman tok tidur...2 minggu lagi sebelum cuti sekolah. kak ita janji nak mai jaga tok dlm cuti....berdoalah agar dia menunaikan janjinya....kalau tidak penat gak umi.....nak jaga 2 rumah ni bukan senang...tak cukup tangan..kalau tidur rumah tok awai 5 pagi dah kena bangun masak nasi n lauk...pas tu drive balik...takut gak....mintalah dijauhkan bala bencana.
kalau ikut hati memang umi malas tapi kalau tak p umi akan dihantui dgn kekesalan dan kerisauan ttg tok....memang x leh lena.....so , dgn izin abah umi p ......yg pening kepalanya hari isnin - khamis abah kena p penang lak......aduh......camna nak antar adik2 ke 4 tempat dlm masa 30 minit.......dugaan.....dugaan....insyaallah umi akan laksanakan......

Ikut abah

Pagi rabu umi and akak ikut abah p sg petani...abah p seminar..kami tunggu dlm kereta sambe buat kerja komputer.....panas kami keluar sat...p shopping sat....pas abah habis kami p The Store. pastu p Tesco lak.....habis lah duit 2oo.....sampai petang letih tak tau nak cakap.
at 6 umi, akak and ayish p rumah tok...kami tidur sana...kesian dah lama tak teman tok....esok kami baliklah...sambe tu umi buatlah kerja ...taip chapter 1.....mujur lecturer nak jumpa seminggu lagi...leh lah buat .....kalau tidak tentu umi gabra habis.....ginilah kalau dah tua tapi masih nak belajar...suma sambe .....insyaallah...umi akan buat sampai berjaya...suma tolong doakan ye.

last Tuition

last nite we arrived home from langkawi at 8.15 and after solat i immediately went to the tuition centre to give my last form 5 tuition class.....even though i was having diarrhoea, i forced myself to go because i've promised my students the last class before they sit for SPm on 18th Oct.
after being with them for about 10 months, i have already regarded them as my own children...we are close and i strongly believe they will do well in their paper.
actually, i was quite reluctant to handle this class when approached by my friend azaliah...but thinking of offering my service to help the students, i changed my mind...only to realize that i actually enjoy being with them. at least i can keep myself informed about SPM English paper.
i pray for their success and if God's willing, i will see them in Matric this May.,,insyallah.
To syed arif,syed atif,zakaria, fakhri,hariz,alif,syafiq,fahmi, eddy,wahidah, anis, zulaikha, azmina, afifah, ainil,hana....ALL the best to you.

Langkawi Lagi

On Sunday, the five of us went to Langkawi...to buy present for alin...so called ..n to buy things for umi....we stopped at Bird Park...that' s all....finally at kuah jetty we found alin's doll set...she was very happy.for ayish we got him ninja turtle...actually the trip was x very complete as not all of umi's children were there.....we used to go for vacation together so this one trip is ....quite empty...

Friday, umi and family spent one day at tok's house. paklang was not feeling well. at 6 pm we returned...decided to go bowling....so

we went to Pacific alor star and tried out the venue there....look at the score. 124 ....this is the highest umi could get...dah happy giler.

saturday umi n fren went to uum for the last class this sem. rupa2nya the class was over....padan muka asyik ponteng. but the lecturer was there so we discussed our thesis abit....

umi returned at 11 something. abah was x in.actually they went to take alin's report card...syukur alin got the first place.she scored 100 in 6 subjects and 92 for Arabic....pandai gak budak ni...the teacher said alin was always positive and showed the interest in learning....umi feels so happy...that is a good start when entering standard one.....

evening at 5 umi and atih, ayish and alin went to SMKAK to see the boys....abah got a function so terpaksa p isi minyak sendiri...not sendiri lah...atih p minta pekerja shell tu tolong isikan...umi stayed in the car....kan umi x tau isi....

we arrived there at about 5.45 pm...bob just finished his arabic class,eman returned from kursus pengawas baru.....the boys wallap marrybrown and nasi goreng...kesian ....so hungry...

umi reached home close to maghrib....abah already bought bihun sup for us...akak bought doughnut.

weekend story is always the same....no chance to stay home and keep the house tidy.....ntahlah....let it be....lagipun bukannya kami selalu terima tetamu....kata2 buat penyedap hati.....walaupun semak mata tengok pelbagai benda berada di mana2.....

along just called..he is ok....as always umi will keep him updated with what's happening.....
so he knows what we are doing here and we know what he is keeping up there.

this is my life.....routine ...... yet fulfilling as umi believes that taking care of children is no part time job....it's forever continuous......

umi redha.......

Life goes on

This is the last week before semester 1 break..umi feels so relieved, knowing that there are alot of unfinished matters that umi has to tackle. Among them are:
1. Chapter one of research on Middle Children of KMK.Are they introvert or extrovert and how do they develop their relationship with friends.
2. This one really needs my touch up...my neglected garden that grows more weeds than flowers...umi plans to spend every morning doing this.
3. Completing my article to be sent to magazine...i MUST get at least one published....this is my lifelong dream......
4. Ensuring mak will be fine and taken care off......
5. sending and fetching alin from kindergartenn...she already requested me that....lagipun she got the 1st place this time...i am proud of her.
6. Tidying up the house especially the living room and the kitchen...sometimes, i do not know how to do it....it is never up to my expectations.
7. of course i would love to do some shopping, raya haji is coming soon....

hopefully my one week holiday will be spent wisely.....does it help if this Sunday, i spend one day in Langkawi????he3x....tengah fikir apa nak beli.......

senja yg suram di Kuala Perlis

Inilah pemandangan sepanjang Kuala Perlis yang umi rakam sebelum umi mendapat berita yg menyedihkan itu....sebaik umi tiba, bersamaan dgn azan Maghrib, umi menerima SMS yg amat mengejutkan....memang suram pemandangan hari Jumaat itu......pilunya masih terasa.

Pengajaran dari sebuah kehilangan

Early morning umi and abah went to visit Zul in Guar cempedak. there were so many people paying their last respect to aruah....umi x contain my sadness, especially looking at her mother, brother and sister.....imagine he called last wednesday asking his mom to ask for forgiveness from all villagers....he already had the feeling that he would leave us...as for ummi....my last chance to see him was not given as umi was in a course....maybe he wanted to say something...there were so many maybes that he took together with him.
umi is still mourning his death...especially thinking how he survived, starving without enough food as he wanted to keep the allowance money for his future and his family.....banyak mana sangat but he strived for his family.
Silently, umi learnt a lot from him....such a young boy but so rich with experience that umi will surely cannot forget.....
Insyaallah he is now being guided and guarded by the Angels.......umi doakan kesejahteraan aruah....AL FATIHAH

Perginya anak didikku

hari Jummat yg mulia ini, pada azan maghrib, sebaik umi tiba di kuala Perlis, umi menerima berita yg amat mengejutkan,iaitu pemergian seorang bekas pelajr PDT yg amat rapat dengan umi...Norzulkif bin Norazman yg terlibat dgn kemalangan pada petang ini.....payah utk umi mempercayaainya sebab baru 2 hari umi tak jumpa dia......
zulkif adalah seorang pelajar yang amat baik, lemah lembut, sopan santun dan alim pd pandangan umi. walaupun umi ddah x ajr dia, dia kerap datang jumpa umi.....pada bulan rejab dan syaaban, dia akan memperingatkan umi tentang puasa......bulan ramadhan dia suka cerita tentang apa yg dilakukan dgn Ustaz Azlan di masjid.....beberapa hari sebelum raya, dia nak hantar kerepek yg dibuat oleh emaknya ( yg sedang sakit buah pinggang, selepas accident) bayangkan dia nak antar dgn motor dari Guar ke Jitra...umi minta abah ambik di dpn masjid guar on the way ke Yan.

raya kali ini dia demam...kesian tapi tetap juga menghabiskan puasa 6.....dia usik umi lagi lagi....umi sennyum aje.....sememangnya umi kalah dgn dia.......umi malu sebenarnya dgn ketaatan dia.....dan sebenarnya umi banyak belajar dari dia mengenai susah payah sebuah kehidupan.

2 minggu kebelakangan ini dia kerap call dan send sms kat umi...kekdag pukul 1 pagi....umi x jaawab takut ayish jaga.minggu sudah dia antar mesej kata dia demam, macam mana nak lega cepat sebb dia nak exam..umi tak jawab gak.....umi kalau dah tidur mmg x compute...then umi apologize kat dia....kekadang dia suuruh umi call dia jap....dia mengadu kawan2 dia antar sms yg mengecilkan hati , tapi umi kata buat donno saja sbb suma tension nak exam...ngan lecturer pun dia ada terasa hati sebb dia kata lecturer tu marah kat dia tanpa sebab...umi kata mungkin lect tu nak melawak ngan dia.....sebelum ni dia takk macam tu......
kekadang kalau dia kerap sngt sms umi buat donno gakkkkkk.

harijadi umi, dia antara yg awal antar mesej at 12 midnite....umi jawab at 2 am.....esoknya dia mai bawa hadiah...pen holder gambar kaabah......dia kata ddah beli 2 bulan yg lalu,,,tersentuh hati umi.....kami sembang panjang...dia kata cuti dia nak tebas rumput nak tanam pokok dokong...leh sedekah kat orang.....umi suruh dia tanam cabai leh jual......bodoh tul umi rasa....

hari rabu 21 ocktober dia call nak jumpa umi tapi umi kata tak leh sebab umi tgh kursus HOTS....mesej akhir dia : Tak pa lah......dia balik kampung tanpa sempat jumpa umi....itu yg umi terkilan......

baru petang ini umi dah delete suma sms dia yg umi simpan bersama2 20 lagi sms ucapan birthday yg umi terima....agaknya masa tu la dia pergi.......

hati umi amat sedih ....seorang anak yg baik yg ingin belajr bersungguh-sungguh utk membantu ibunya....ayahnya dah tak ada......dia memang amat bertangggungjawab. umi doakan agar ibu dia tabah dan reda dgn pemergian seorang anak yg cukup soleh ........

ntah berapa kali umi menangis dari maghrib tadi sehingga sekarng...dah 12 mlm dan umi baru saja hadiahkan bacaan yaasin kepada aruah....esok pagi, insyaallah umi akan menziarahinya......

umi rasa amat kehilangan seorang anak yg amat baik budi pekerti dan amalannya......Moga rohnya ditempatkan bersama para solehin......AMIN

HOTS

For two days, 21 and 22 oct. i joined about 4o lecturers from KMK.KMP and KMteknikal pendang attending a workshop on HOTS - or Higher Order Thinking Skills which has been practised for quite some time...Dr Norashikin from IAB was the presenter. her symple,laidback styles helped us sailed through the mind -boggling activities....which was ok as she surely knew that we would fall asleep in she just gave us facts.....we lecturers are of higher thinkers....so called....so the activities reuqired some thinking of higher level and we were really into it.
What made me proud was that our group...Yellow Hat won 3 times in the competition, thus making us the winner. what actually got us into the whole thing was the cooperation among all 10 members, thus making the tasks enjoyable and meaningful.
we started from HOTS , moved to De Bono 6 hats and ended up with Tony Buzan's mind mapping...these are all very related to our job as lecturers where we have to face students of different levels, mindset...ability and many more differences.....
Even though i arrived home suffering from incessant headaches, i was happy i attended the workshop which actually helped to put me on the track again, after being derailed a few times....sometimes forgetting my role as an educator......
I glad it is over though as i can continue with my research which i believe is also something hot and getting hotter each day till the day i graduate.......

thank you notes

Today, 20th Oct 2009 is my 45th birthday...i have a lot to thank for. To Allah , the Greatest for blessing me with a happy and fulfilling life...which i know is also a challenge from Him...i must be very grateful and preserve my belief on the One....
To my aruah father and my mom whose selfless dedication made me who i am today. Without their love and sacrifice, surely i wont be getting all these...i can never thank them enough... i pray by taking care of my children, i will somehow compensate what they have done for me.

Special thanks and affection to my beloved hubby who has been with me for almost 25 years, guiding, helping, accompanying, and consolling me in my life path....today i got this as a present...which i value very much but not as much i appreciate him being my life partner.

To all my children, along, akak, bob, atih,eman, adik,alin and ayish.....umi really treasure every single moment spent together...umi prays for all your success in life and in the hereafter. without all of you, umi is a nobody...my pride is your health and wellbeing.

P/s -----baju kuning ni hadiah dari along....umi simpan utk dipakai hari ini. Thanks along....

syukur

1. syukur akak has completed her PSPM and because of that she will be home for 2 weeks. unfortunately, we lecturers only get one week mid sem holiday......never mind...at least i have free time to complete my chapter 1.
2. syukur i managed to send my outline to my supervisor and now waiting for her reply. i hope things will turn out ok.
3. tomorrow i will celebrate my 45th birthday..syukur i am still alive and kicking...still healthy...that is the most treasured gift from Allah.

i admit

Thinking back i realize and admit that there are certain things that i always forget when i am in the process of accomplishing something especially my total submission to Allah...it is not i purposely ignore that fact but somehow when facing the many uncontrolled circumstances i unconsciously forget that whatever i am doing is in the knowledge of Allah the Guidance to the right path...when i encountered problem then i realized that it was only the reminder from Allah, not to forget Him, but to follow and adhere to His guidelines ......how small i feel i am....a helpless woman, wife, mother and teacher who is trying her level best to give the best to all that i love.

I also come to my senses that whatever i do will be emulated by my children.....if i show them the ugly side of me, then they will somehow ter follow it...and if i display good behaviour, they will also show the same attitude.......this is really a challenge for me....the biggest challenge compared to my other deeds........

I pray and hope that i will bounce back and continue my path of life.....leaving behind a beautiful trail that will be tracked by all my beloved children.My destiny will be their mission, my spirit will be their guidance and my forever love, will be their comfort....insyallah.....

satupun tak kena

hari ini dah 17 october,tapi hiudp umi cempera semacam.suma buat tak kesampaian.antara tugas yg terbengkalai ialah:
1. kerapkali ter miss p tengok tok...sejak ada pak lang umi dah jarang p ...kemarin p masak kat tok.dia dah marah sbb tak dak sapa masak nasi kat dia....umi p dah pukul 9 awai tu...tapi tok dah lapar walaupun dia dah makan pulut.la ni tok dah macam budak2...awaai pagi sebelum subuh dah nak makan....kesian tok....mujur pak lang ada.....
2. keadaan di rumah mmg sentiasa x terurus....peti ais tak dak lauk apa.entah nak p pasarpun malas...hari2 makan beli aje.....bila mood nak masak ada, lauk lak tak ada....bila lah masa nak p pasar ......ntah....
3. pokok2 kat luar pun dah naik jadi hutan....umi sempat cabut rumput sikit2...yg banyak lagi umi tengokk ajee...bayangkan rumput sebgai pokok bunga.....pagi tadi sempatgak p jenguk....
4. ni yg satu ni mmmg pening....pasai belajar la. supervisor dah minta outline la...chapter 1 la.....mmeng umi ada banyak articles dah tapi nak focus duduk n baca n tulis ntah bila agaknya. kat tempat keja..ada saja yg kena buat...lari p library sat.....maksimum 2 jam..pas tu ngantuk giler.balikk rumah macam dok kata la....ada asssistant yg amat berminat dgn laoptop umi...lagipun at 11 umi dah nak tidur....
5. tanggungjawab kat family pun dah kurang....mujur gak yg ada tinggai 4 orang saja.....abah pun pandai2 la bawa diri...lgaipun abah lagi bz pada umi...ngalahkan PM.......

dalam kekalutan ni umi terfikir...apa sebenarnya yg umi nak......umi pun tak tau......belasah aje la.

SERABUT

FIKIRAN UMMI KACAU.....SALAH KE UMI?

macam-macam

1.
Akak is sitting for for first sem final exam. we pray for her success...insyaallah she will do fine.
all her hard work will be paid....this is very important.
Alin is also struggling with her final year exam...6 tahun...tapi serious giler.

2.
While driving to work today, i saw a father stopping his motorcycle, sending his daughter to SKJ. iSuddenly i recalled my late father who used to do that every morning for 4 years, sending and fetching me on his old bicycle...how sincere he was, taking care of me. i cried all the way to work, thinking abiut him and his undivided attention and kindness.may Allah bless him......

orchids

xunderstand why my orchirds only bloom once a year and the best part is, they came only during Hariraya......berkat kot....

Bowling lagi?

Monday nite umi invited a friend Yanti to join me bowling...saja2 walaupun dah janji x mau main lagi after along balik...abah was away so we were lonely. Atih and adik joined. alin tagged along. ayish was sent to his sitter...and spent the nite there...that nite i had a dream of ayish as it has been a long time since i allowed him to sleep at sitter's house....