Kisah Sedih

This year's hari raya was the most uneventful and solemn one..even though my own family had a good time celebrating Eid, my own mom was not....how could she be happy when none of my brother and sister in KL and Sg Buluh returned home even though they knew my mom is not well.....
I could be letting the secret out but i could not contain this disappointment anymore. My sister and all her 11 children did not come home with the excuse of faulty cars....tak leh sewa ke?....and what was worse was my brother who promised my mom to return on Wednesday but failed to turn up....i was confident that he would balik so i went to Langkawi but when i asked my mom......she was so sad....i cried in silence and i know my mom cries many times...thinking how her children treat her....
what i dont understand is, if they didnot want to come ,just call or send me SMS...no need to let my mom suffer alone....i understand if they have problem but.....this is MAK we are dealing with....the person who spent her whole life taking care of us....tak kan sehari pun tak leh balik....i ni marah tahap cipan ni......but what could i do? i am the youngest so nobody cares what i feel.
I believe if i offer to pay for all their expenses, surely the whole family will come...but i also have my own responsibilty...i dah malu ngan hubby as i already spent a lot to help them....this time i cannot anymore.They should work harder and think more of Mom.......
dia orang ni tak takut ke the same thing could happen to them....i amat takut dan minta dijauhi kesedihan di tinggalkan anak-anak-----suma ini adalah pengajaran dari ferita sebenar dan bukannya rekaan penulis blog ini......

family raya collection

My 4 girls decided to go for non-flowery baju kurung.

My boys opted for kurta....

my other other half.....the other two never gave umi and abah a chance.

Together with my two youngest...ceria tak kami tahun ni?

Ayish ni kat mana umi adalah dia

Kenangan

After visiting Underwater World, we headed towards cable car at Agro park. On the way, we stopped at Black Sand Beach...quite a site for my children who had never seen the black sand before.

I only posed in front of the counter..the main reason was, i was very scared of high....they said akak and atih screamed like anything.....tu la....

Ayish also did not try the cable car so both of us visited the rabbits and deers and elephants and fish.....save ....

Upon arriving at Kuala Perlis jetty we had dinner of ikan bakar, tomyam,fried chicken, fried kailan, soup and the bill came at RM160....mak oi.....mujur bebudak makan licin....i dont mind ...bukan selalu belanja cam ni.....nanti their turn lak....might take years......

update

now umi and abah are waiting for the children who went inside underwater world..all 8 of them.it has been about 1 hour and they are still in. both of us wait for them outside as malas nak tengok the same penguin and fish....ayish is surely estatic to see the animal...can't wait to hear his story when he comes out.....after this we plan to go to cablecar....umi tak berani nak naik...yg umi berani nak p ialah iDAMAN sURI......Umi taulah nak buat apa kat situ.....semalam kat Ismail group umi tak beli apapun.....cuma along beli bag dia ..........

Langkawi visit

compilation of pictures of us in the boat, at the jetty and at nite having dinner at jai's restaurant.

Open house raya ke 4

along's primary school's classmates came ...all grow up already
My late brother's wife and her children and grandchildren came at nite.

my late sister's husband who is now look after my mom....his first visit to my house..he is
performing haj this year.

rentetan peristiwa

Ni umi n ayish shopping hari raya kedua sbelm p rumah tok.
Ni last day buka posa di rumah tok....hari sabtu 19 september

Ni sambut birthday abah pada hari jumaat 18 september.
ni last time buka posa di Tesco pada hari Khamis 17 september...Ni lak...peristiwa hari ini 24 september(raya ke 6).....kami kat Langkawi Chalet....jalan-jalan beb...curi2 masa bawa keluarga makan angin.....

rajin umi...

Last nite atih, adik and umi spent from 6 t0 10 pm to bake cornflake madu and cupcake ni...aduh letih betul...maklum it has been a year since we last did that.


The baking was fast but still i felt so tired.does it mean i am too old for all this...tu yang best pakai tunjuk-tunjuk aje....but i am proud of it even though our product was not as beautiful as those bought.......bila akak balik esok leh la buat sarang semut lak......jemput makan......

biar betul umi ni.

yesterday, umi beli a new handset for about RM730. dah lama pakai handset nokia tentu nak tukar yang baru..yg lebih canggih......duit kut tu nak buat apa kalau tak guna. nak beli setee barupun malas rasanya....gelang baru pun...ntah rasa mahal sangat.....So umi belilah yang ini.

Ha.....jangan salah anggap kata umi ni membazir duit.yg lama baru berapa bulan pakai.masih elok lagi.....Sebenarnya umi beli ni khas untuk hadiah harijadi abah pad 18 September ni.....bukan untuk umi.......biar umi guna duit untuk beli something special kat abah......he deserves this.........

biar betul

Ait....posing sakan nampak ngan tudung baru.

letih posa ke? nampak ngantuk aje

apa yang direnung tu?

Aaaaaaa....now baru senyum sikit.

Ni nampak come anak umi.....tapi siapa ni? Alin ke????? oh tidak.......INI AYISH........nak kena budak ni.

pictures speak for all

Ni mee udang umi...rm4....selera weh....jemput makan

ni ayish yg happy tak posa and makan croissant ngan air milo...

Kesian atih n adik dok observe mee goreng and chicken chop. kat 30 minit tunggu....baru leh makan. jgn kacau mee umi tau.......

marathon lagi kelmarin

kelmarin umi busy gila. at 8 am umi and along were at the market, buying food for tok. arrived at toks and prepared pomfret(bawal) curry for her while along did the laundry. at 11 we returned home and buzy putting the new curtain to ummi's room. then tertidur jap. at 3, got ready to send eman and bob and akak back...first we went to Alor Star.....

Then turned back and headed towards Changlun. on the way, abah was very sleepy so we stopped for a while by the roadside and abah took a nap. 5 minutes aje as akak was so worried she would arrive late for Blok C gathering at 5. after sending her back to KMK, we went back...supposedly towards home in Jitra, but after some discussion, we decided to go to Giant to break fast there.the mee udang was calling me....again....

abah said fine so we arrived at Giant, Alor Star at 6 pm. did some shopping and ordered our food at 6.45....after makan-makan we returned home....exhausted.

lebai lagi

dlam dok cerita pasai lebai, umi teringat gambar along masa kecik dulu pakai lebai yang umi kaitkan juga untuk dia....masa ni nttah umur dia berapa tahun.yang pasti umi selalu pakaikan dia lebai....agaknya tu sampai la dia suka lebai.....he3x

lebai

semalam while waiting for Isya' along dok cerita kat abah dia pasai pak lang(ex-husband aruah kak umi)suka ngan lebai yg along pakai so along pun hadiahlah kat pak lang. dah seminggu pak lang mai teman tok malm2.ntah apa angin dia...maybe dia nak berbakti seblm dia p haji 2 tahun ini....pak lang dgn suka hati menerima lebai along...amik berkat agaknya.
bilamana umi mendengar along cerita pasai lebai, tiba-tiba umi menangis kerana terkenang aruah tok wan yang semasa hidupnya gemar memakai lebai yang umi kaitkan untuknya. sampai pergi ke Mekah pun tok wan pakai....umi amat sedih mengingati tok wan yang amat baik dan amat menghargai pemberian umi. sekarang ntah di mana lebai itu berada....nanti umi cari di rumah tok. solat Isya' umi masih dalam kesedihan dan umi sentiasa berdoa agar roh tok wan tenang...setiap kali selepas solat waktu umi tak pernah lupa menghadiahkan alfatihah kepada aruah.
apa yang umi terkilan umi tak boleh selalu menziarah kubur tok wan ...hari jumaat bukan hari yang lapang bagi umi sekarang.....insyaallah raya nanti barulah boleh pergi.
Umi juga terkenang saat aruah tok wan menghadap sakaratulmaut.....13 mac 2007. sebelum itu selepas maghrib umi bacakan Yasin 2 kali di hadapan aruah dan umi dapati mukanya bercahayaf. umi kehairanan tapi cuma terdetik dalam hati...pukul 10 malam tok wan minta umi menyuci dirinya. tiba2 kakinya sejuk dan kami terus mengurut seluruh badannya.....umi dapat rasa getaran yang amat kuat dan bila umi peluk kepala tok wan umi dapati ianya berpeluh..umi memang menangis habis apatah lagi bila aruah kata: hang urutpun tak jadi apa dah. pak nak p dah ni.......akhirnya tok wan pergi dengan tenang ....matanya redup menunjukkan keakuran seorang hamba kepada Penciptanya......umi reda........

KFC Konon

Yesterday we decided to go for bajukurung at BTM. we got 2 suits and then headed towards Yawata and got another suit. Time showed 7 something already. we wanted to break fast at KFC. the moment we arrived there what we saw were droves of teenagers entering and many already occupying the whole 2 floors of the restaurant...macam kenduri depa lak....7.15 ..and we had no where to go, so finally we stopped at a stall by the corner of kedai tayar in front of Pusat Perubatan Jitra....nasi tomato ayam masak merah was our only choice......best gak makan ramai-ramai ngan orang lain.....the cheapest of all days : RM22......after that no more delicacies......
kesian kat bebudak....i think tomorrow we will go again ....this time earlier......i promise.

sedar sebelum terlambat

Sesekali umi termenung panjang, minda berlegar-legar menyoal diri sendiri , merenung kehidupan yang penuh dugaan ini....tersentak dari lamunan terus tersedar bahawa selama ini umi lalai dan alpa bahawa dalam usia 45 tahun ini, Allah telah memberikan umi sebuah kehidupan yang amat baik,lengkap, bahagia, gumbira dan segala yang baik-baik belaka.

Sekarang, bila diuji sedikit sahaja, umi sudah keluh-kesah, hilang sabar dan muram. umi lalai sebenarnya, umi tidak muhasabah diri bahawa apa yang diberi Allah adalah sedikit sahaja. ramai lagi orang yg mengalami masalah yg lebih sukar untuk diselesaikan. umi akur Allah lebih
Mengetahui apa yang akan berlaku di masa hadapan...UMI SEDAR, UMI SEDAR, UMI SEDAR....Ampun.......

kereta baru

sketsa 1: petang kelmarin semasa pulang dari kerja dipandu oleh along.

Umi : nanti along dah kerja, along nak beli kereta apa?
Along : kereta macam ni la ( Kembara ).
Umi : kalau camtu, along amik sajalah kereta ni. He3x. umi nak kereta baru.
Along : Umi nak kereta apa?
Umi : Hmmmmmm...umi nak Honda CRV....lama dah dok angan.
Along : brapa ribu, umi?
Umi : mahai la...umi pun tak tau....
Along : (senyap lama. dok pikiak leh ke nanti nak beli satu kat umi)
Umi : (Leh ke along beli ni. I must be dreaming)

Kembara terus meluncur ke Jitra....umi mengantuk sebab tak pegang stereng........Along dgn gumbiranya mengemudi kereta buruk umi sampai rumah. Alhamdulillah.....

time after time

it seems that time is drifting away so fast that i find it very hard to accomplish so many things within this week. weekend is always the worst with replacement class and master's class to attend. at the end of the day , i keep asking myself what i have done for the week.....actually routine that is becoming more static and mundane.......
sometimes i wonder what would happen to my life....i want to do something different but i do not have to time to indulge in that...my thesis is also at the very basic level...no improvement....
my preparation for hariraya is also stale.....not much happening. break fast activities are also the same...same food....same bazar....same , same , same........
by the time we celebrate hariraya i think, i will be so confused and unorganized and unprepared....

a week of pressure...again

aduh...this week is certainly a building moment for continuous pressure....more explosive tha pressure cooker....so i was told....
first, abah left us for KL again..and there he is enjoying himself with satay and ABC at nite..and here i am struggling with workload, hoarding my brood for break fast food, and trying to complete my critical review of an article that i have only a day to read and understand as my lecturer wants it this saturday and on top of that, searching for literature reviews as my supervisor wants to see me for my thesis topic...this week is so short.
and again tomorrow is a working day......blah....when do i have the time to do the cleaning for hariraya.....my house sure looks unready for any kind of celebration.
Now, where to find baju raya for us the girls of the house....we are all choosy so i can imagine the visit from one bazaar to another, one shopping centre to another just to find matching clothes and you know what.....
akak is also not feeling well and bob is sitting for his SPM trial and i do not have the time to really focus on both.....luckily along helps sending atih to school and looks after tok's needs.
one thing that i am looking forward to next week is gaji time and kutu.....now i must start thinking how to spend the money.....he3x....at least that makes my life more bearable....