Ever since my mom passed away 2 months ago, i have become a very busy mom, having experience 2 incidences that turn me into a very cautious, conscious person. It's very true, and will always be true that if you lose your mom, you will also lose a dear person who will always pray for your good life. You will feel that your life is empty, as if there is a hollow space in your body, and it cannot be filled up with anything. That lack of feeling will haunt you, will remind you that you are actually alone. You might be surrounded by people, hundreds of people, but the fact is, you will always feel lonely. That is the impact of not having a mother who will pray for your safety, for your happiness.
Nevertheless, i always try to take things positively, as i know i am myself a mother and there are 8 lovely children who are relying on my prayers in guiding them pave their life. I realize that as much as i need my mom's prayers, they also are waiting for mine. I will not disappoint them as my mom never disappointed me before. Her prayers were the strong supportive motivations that always strengthen my hope and thus, the same would be offered to my children.
I know i have disappointed my mom many times but i also realize that she would not let her sadness clouded her judgement. I was the same loved and pampered daughter to her. My mistakes never deprived me from receiving her never-ending love and support. Yes, we argued, we said bad things, we were at loggerheads but we forgave, we reconciled, we touched our hearts with the bond that existed between us. That is what i call the power of mother' love. Hate was never found in our dictionary and love etched forever in our hearts.
Because of this, i also know that i can never disappoint my children, no matter what they do, i will forever support them, i will forgive and forget, i will go beyond the normal ability just for their happiness and success and fulfilled life. They can make me sad, angry, despair or down, but get up i will. I must give them what i got from my mom. I want the legacy to continue till we reach Jannah. I will just lead this life, thinking that whatever obstacles experienced are just a part of the test from Allah, thus, i must never lose His love. And love is what my children are going to get, insyaallah.
