challenges

many a time umi sat down n thought about the hardship of bringing up 8 children. it is certainly no party having to be on my toe all the time, making sure none is left unattended, which sometimes happened but it was without any intention.
imagine having to entertain all of them; who are very different naturally, some are easy going, some play the quiet role, some just burst unexpectedly, some try to remain cool when the feeling is seething inside....

just imagine is it easy to understand them all? obviously, it is not as simple as ABC. at one time, umi honestly believed that i had given my level best, only to despair as my deed was not good enough, then again, umi just felt like giving up, but after looking at their desperate, give me attention look, umi just thaws away, putting aside my anger but relented and offer them selfless love and undivided attention.

this up and down kind of relationship with my children is actually the learning path towards understanding and developing my own sanity, personality and priority. if i just let them go, i will miss a very huge part of myself...thus how to lead this life.

to all my children, i am not perfect, i am no angel, i make mistake, i grumble, but deep inside i love all of you with all my God blessed heart.

Giliran

Umi tak tau nak kata hepi ke sedih ke ....umi sepatutnya hepi tapi........

Sekarang ni umi dah buat perjanjian ngan mak ndak( sister in law) and liza ( niece) yg kami akan bergilir jaga tok waktu malam. misalnya weekend, mak ndak n pak ndak pi teman tok..depa kata weekend ok sebab tak payah balik rumah depa awai sangat..kalau weekdays, kena balik awai so pak ndak pening kepala..maklum keja bank satgi silap buat kira2 jenuh nak kena bayar balik.

so semalam depa tidur..kesian lak sebab depa tak besa..janggal rasanya.memang rumah tok sunyi..orang kata mati kutu kalau tidur sana...nasib baik liza n ibun n anak2 ada di rumah depan. malam ni mak ndak ajak anak dia man temanakan tok...tengoklah perkongsian depa menjadi atau tidak....

mlm esok turn umi n atih lak..tapi satu malam aje sebab isnin ke rabu abah lak kena p KL. takkan umi nak angkut 4 orang depa p tidur...nak gerak awai pagi payah...

maybe liza akan temankan tok dulu, pastu baru umi amik alih lak.....gitulah keadaannya.

sesekali fikir baguih juga perjanjian ini...semua pakat rasa berbakti kepada tok. taklah umi sorang saja yg dok perosah..at least tok rasa dirinya amat dihargai....
bukan umi tak boleh cuma umi ni gerabak panjang.....

umi amat berdoa agar semuanya akan berjalan dengan lancar,, semua ikhlas membantu, semua sanggup bersusah sedikit, semua berusaha menjadikan kehidupan tok tenang dan selamat................cuma...........doakan juga agar tok tak berleter banyak sangat.........potong stim kalau tok asyik marah2.............

aku dan dia

ni ha peneman umi dihari cuti ni. ayish tak p rumah pengasuh sebab dia nak teman umi. mahal harga peneman ni. selama dua hari ni, dah byk duit keluar. kemarin saja rm49 utk flash n dash kereta control. pagi tadi buku Ben 10 haarga rm8.00...surat khabar umi baru 2 ringgit lebih..satgi nak p lunch di KFC dia dah target nak mainan Doraemon...adui 11 hari lagi cuti mau jatuh miskin umi.

apapun njoy dok ngan ayish ni. dia tak kacau umi wat apapun janji dia ada kartun Astro...susu bersilih botol...tadi roti canai sepinggan dah lenyap dimakan ayish.kalau suruh p sekolah dia tak mau. dia kata dia tak pandai so tak mau pi. umi kata pasai tak pandaila kena p...bila p amik alin di sekolah dia kata...ayish nak mai sekolah macam ni la.....bukan leh percaya kata-kata janji ayish ni.

sat sat mai peluk umi....sayang umi.......kalau sayang umi ayish kena wat apa? ayish kena mandikan umi......ha ha ha....sat sat hilang dan kembali dan bawakan hadiah untuk umi.......tara.kereta Ben 10...umi mana reti main...terus dia ajar........umi bosan....umi main games la...........sebenarnya dia yg nak main.

best dpt spend masa ngan ayish...yg lain2 touch n go saja as they are bz di sekolah. sebab tu umi treasure cuti yg jarang2 dpt ni....

Aduhai Abah

Last nite, at about 12, umi terwoke up after listening to the flipping of the coin on the floor...ish cik ti ni nak main duit aku ke ( Maklum baru kaya terima gaji n tunggakan lagi). As i opened my eyes, i saw a shadow figure, sitting on the floor, near the door....apasal ni?

it was abah, complaining his painful left foot........sah gout menyerang abah lagi...aduh kesian....abah was in pain....the almost 80kg body slummed near the bed.
umi tried to massage the leg but to no avail...then abah asked umi to get the pill from the fridge....then only abah was slightly better n managed to sleep.

6.25 umi woke up.....aduh terlajak, letih bangun 2 3 kali....abah said he could not walk...could not attend the meeting in AS...luckily umi just started sem break so umi took hold of everything.

morning, umi was outside, weeding my garden....kesian byk pokok dah nak mati...umi cleared some space coz umi planned to plant some chillies....anak benih dah cambah lama dah....

11, we went to the doctor...syukur BP abah cuma 130....then we went to the bank, sent Kembara to mechanic and returned home, just in time to fetch alin and adik.
2.15, we went to fetch atih, paid some bills n did some shopping at Yawata...umi took control of the Innova and abah became the co-pilot...umi knew it was high time umi drive this car...must familiarize my self with the car...who knows..with abah's condition.....

5.30pm, went to get Kembara back....adui RM580 gone...change clutch.....no wonder umi felt so uneasy driving this car for a week already...because of this , umi kecik hati ngan abah...oooooooo kalau innova abah calar sikit aje...cepat2 gi baiki, kalau kembara, abah buat relax aje.....memang disappointed tul....so nak amik hati umi abah settled the bill....itulah caranya.....

6.30 on the way to tok's house, stopped at pasar malam n arrived to see ibun and kak liza busy clearing tok's front compound....banyak pokok pisang depa tebang, barulah cerah sikit...operasi menanam cabai n kacang lendir akan bermula.....

10.50 umi, atih and ayish are about to sleep....what a day today......

Iktibar

Cerita yang umi nak tulis ini ada kena mengena dgn yg hidup dan yang mati.....

umi masih lagi teringat kisah pak lang yg baru pergi mengadap Ilahi...doa berpanjangan umi agar rohnya ditempatkan bersama orang yg soleh.

jasa pak lang pada umi amat banyak...benarlah apa yg dikatakan oleh adik aruah pada malam tahlil itu....tetapi dia tidak tahu apa sebenarnya yang terjadi..biarlah.

pada 1963, pak lang berkahwin dgn mak lang...jiran sebelah rumah tau...so pengantin diarak naik basikal aje....mak lang masa tu baru 13 thn, dok main aci ligan lagi...tetiba dah dikahwinkan...
1964 umi dilahirkan tok. mak lang tak dpt anak so umilah jadi anak depa sampai umi 12 thn..then depa ambil seorang anak angkat perempuan.barulah tumpuan kepada umi kurang sedikit...tapi umi tetap menjadi pengunjung tetap rumah depa. sampailah masa umi nak berangkat ke Kanada, mereka berbelnja besar utk umi.

masa berlalu dan umi dah beranak 8, mak lang jatuh sakit....sampai fikirannya tergangggu...ianya bermula bila Bob dilahirkan pd 1992 sehinggallah mak lang meninggal pada 2006...memang derita hidup maklang tapi dia tabah...

selepas pemergian mak lang, pak lang jadi agak terasing..jarang lagi bersama kami. dia hidup sendiri, masak sendiri ( asam pedas,kegemarannya)...2008, tok wan meninggal dunia dan kesihatan tok amat terganggu..hilang sudah teman tok bersembang.
umi kerapkali kena temankan tok pd waktu malam...caca merba lak hidup umi...seawal 5.45 pagi umi dah bertolak balik ke rumah utk persediaan ke tempat kerja. rupanya pak lang memerhatikan keadaan ini.

ramadhan 2009, suatu hari pak lang terjenguk di rumah tok...dia kata: abang Musa kesian tengok hang pi sana pi sini...biarlah abg teman mak waktu malam...semalam abg mimpi kak hang mai suruh p jaga mak....syukur sangat atas pelawaan itu lalu paklang la yg menjadi penunggu setia tok...

selepas menunaikan haji, pak lang terus juga menemani tok...dia kerap mengaji Quran dan diajar oleh tok..itulah rutin depa...siang dia ke kebun atau sawah atau jual pisang, nangka di pasar jitra, malam selepas isyak dia akan datang. Dia banyak duit sebab tak belanja byk sangat....

pada hari selasa 19 Oktober, dia langsung tak datang jenguk tok dan tok hairan sangat. rupa2nnya dia dah nak pergi............pagi 20 oktober, bersamaan hari jadi umi ke 46, dia sakit perut serious, stroke n 2 hari kemudian meninggal....cepat sungguh semua ini berlaku....macam tak percaya tetapi itulah hakikat yg terpaksa kami terima. tok amat terkesan...tak ada lagi teman berbual, berkelahi, mengaji Quran.........hari hari tok semakin sepi, sunyi.............

Aruah telah berbakti kepada kami sekeluarga dan ianya tak mungkin kami lupakan. Al fatihah.

nyesal? tidak!

semalam umi telah melakukan sesuatu yg amat umi tak suka sebab umi amat suka sangat nak teruskan tetapi terPAKSA dihentikan atas sebab yg tak dapat dielakkan sebab kalau umi teruskan juga umi akan jadi sewel sebab tak tau nak bahagi masa. la ni pun dok kelam kelibut cuih sana cuih sini..orang kata tak cukup tanah.

so semalam dengan sedihnya umi dah email kat seseorang yg dah banyak bakti kepada umi mengatakan umi tak dapat nak teruskan perkongsian pintar kami sebab umi tak mampu, memang dah nampak zaman kegelapan umi. berat rasanya hati nak menghampakan harapan orang yg berjasa kepada kita tapi nak buat gena.....dah terpaksa...tak rela tapi kena juga.

mungkin selepas ni tak dak sapa nak percaya kat umi dah, sebab mungkir janji, tapi umi rasa biarlah umi undur diri dulu sebelum perkara ini terus berlanjutan.daripada rugi 90% baik rugi 10& saja.

umi belajar dari kejadian ini untuk mengukur keupayaan sendiri dan jangan ambil apa yg kita tak mampu nak buat....yg penting adalah keluarga dan pelajar.

Bingung

Now umi tengah bingung nak wat camna ngan hidup ni...pemergian pak lang telah mengubah rutin kehidupan kami sekeluarga....sekarang tak ada sapa nak jaga tok so naturally it falls on me....so umi kena buat alignment lain.....
balik sekolah, tgk rumah ( tengok saja) n then sure kena dash ke rumah tok...tiap hari pasangan umi berbeza...kejap adik, kejap atih...yg lain dah balik ke u masing2. umi tak sampai hati nak biar tok tidur sorang2. dah la waktu siang dia duk sorang.masa ada pak lang, waktu zohor, asar n maghrib sure dia akan p tengok tok. then after isyak akan p tidur.
banyak jasanya kepada kami sekeluarga.bayangkan walaupun mak lang dah tak ada, dia sanggup jaga tok.
now umi caca merba...hope adalah sesiapa yg volunteer jaga tok. umi tak sanggup nak minta bibi jaga, nanti tok kecik hati.

Gone

Today at 10am, Friday,, my brother in law passed away after fighting a 3 day stroke and finally blood vomiting after subuh.
i pray Allah will place him together with the solehin....i owed him a lot...he took care of my mom and now he is gone, my mom is so sad and helpless.

i am also sad but i believe Allah knows the best.

Now What?

Yesterday morning, at 5.30 umi got an emergency called from niece, Liza that pak lang, my bro in law who always accompany my mom was down with serious dirrea n vomited continuously. umi n abah rushed to Kpg Padang n Liza called the ambulance.pity him, he was helplessly weak.
he was taken to Jitra hospital and then to Sultanah bahiyah hospital n the n returned to Jitra. Lunch time umi visited him, he was alone, still umi could not reach his daughter, Miza in Kulim...he could not move his left arm and leg...would he be paralyzed? Umi felt so sad coz i could not help him. His BP reading went from 170 to 180 and 190....actually he had high blood pressure n cardio problem but he always kept that as a secret.
evening umi n abah went to see him again. Thank God his daughter was already there. Still he could not move much n his speech was slightly slurred.he was under medication so was quite sleepy.
umi had to leave coz umi must check out tok who was alone. After maghrib umi, atih and ayish went to tok's house...spent about 2 hours cleaning the house...umi did not mind dealing with dirty stuff as umi did that many times when taking care of aruah tok long, mak lang and tok wan..Liza did most of the washing already in the morning, kesian dia ....
at 12 then only umi could sleep. very tired but could not sleep well. dah lama tak tidur rumah tok so rasa janggal. umi realized that pak lang has spent more than a year accompanying tok at nite.now tok is alone...doubled the chores for us...but that is our fate so umi redha aje.
5.30am umi left tok n returned home to get ready for work....umi does not have anymore cuti...athe 7 days were all taken.
umi prays that pak lang will be fine. Miza just informed that doctor is doing physiotherapy with him. he said pak lang is having only a mild stroke n he will be fine in about a month. one funny thing is last nite when miza n her hubby went from one village to another in Jitra, trying to find a bomoh to massage pak lang, everyone told them to find Khamis ( Musa ) ....who is actually pak lang...imagine tok bomoh urut sakit...now sapa nak urut dia? adui kesian.....

3 in 1

adik beradik unit BI...pasai makan Ok selalu.



Me n Intan , always celebrate together...dia punya terkejut hubby dia buat surprise mai KMK dari KL...wow...romantik gitu



Hmm tengok kek ni Intan yg order...sedap tau...kami sambut birthday ni sekali.Intan 30, Umi 46 and Naza 42....



thanks to our friends who really made our day...jum pekena kek ntah nama apa. today is Intan's 30th and my 46th n Naza whose birthday in on 28th also joined.



First time umi asked for storybooks as my birthday present. i already got a new phone N97 last month. so this time, books are enough

20.10.2010

Syukur i turned 46 today. the day should be a happy one BUT....................

Talam 2 Muka

I seriously think that it is not safe anymore to even breathe what more to utter any discomfort feelings in this office...sometimes out of sheer thinking out loud could lead to some misunderstanding among people who actually cannot make head or tail of what you are saying. because of that, you become a victim of people's misunderstanding , thus putting you in a very uncomfortable zone.

I learn that not all people think the way you do and some people are just crazy for position, to an extend that they make no heed about badmouthing so called friends, just to benefit from this...this i am very disappointed...

One more thing, please never query my ability in my work, my sincerity in teaching students, my close bond with my friends, to the extend that my seniority, my salary that i 100% believe i deserve, is questioned. i have been working for almost 23 years and i know who i am today is because i know what i am doing.

so keep you mouth shut and just let me do my work, and you yours...you will also be questioned later in the Hereafter.

Mamun sIANG

Umi bangunla ayish nak susu ni
umi bangunla. kan umi sayang ayish, bangunla
ni apa pulak dok terngiang ngiang ni...dah pagi ke?

umi bangunla, ayish lapar susu,

apa benda budak ayish ni....
umi tak leh buka mata la ayiish,
mata umi berat,
umi kat mana ni...ada tiga tingkat...supermarket ke?
tadi umi nampak abah curi troli, masuk dlm Innova
ait...ada budak dok nak mai curi sampah lak
apa dia ni
akak demam? ai tempat ni berhantu ke?
sejuk seram semacam aje.....

umi bangunlah, ayish nak susu, akak tak mau buat.
adoi ayish, tolongla buka mata umi,berat ni
tadi dah buka tapi tutup balik
pasai apa umi tak leh buka mata
umi dah mati ke ayish?

ayish korek mata umi,
tu boleh.....umi jgn tutup mata,
ayish lapar susu ni.

Ya Allah, umi tidur rupanya.
jam 9 pagi sambe baca paper dah lup
rasa mamai yg amat sangat
patutla sayup dgr suara ayish,

ok ok umi bangun.......ayish nak susu berapa botoi?
langkah yg berat membawa umi ke dapur.......
dah pukul 11 rupanya....patutlah ayish dahaga....

inilah penangan orang tua p kursus...siap pocho pocho la, senam tari la, kawadla
sekarng rasala akibatnya......................
mampuih aku tak mau p dah................

i'm back

syukur ....after 3 grueling, extensive, mind torturing days,i am back to reality...ready to face new days with clearer frame of mind,improvised vision of future journey and determined set of heart....to guide my life, my student, my family n destiny....of course i x reveal whatever learnt....but one thing i know for sure is all this while, i can confidently claim that i am doing the right thing.recharged?... yes but i believe i never digress from my aim n vision in doing my best.

i can safely summarize by saying,

I AM NOT AFRAID OF TOMORROW
FOR I HAVE SEEN YESTERDAY
AND I LOVE TODAY.

HILANG

Umi telah menerima surat perintah agar menglostkan diri ke hutan balik pulau, penang selama 3hari 2 mlm.semua ditanggung oleh kerajaan. umi ingat nak exercise la sikit sebab lemak pun dah banyak, asyik potluck saja di kolej..so sempena kursus BTN ini umi mengambil kesempatan beriktikad menguruskan badan selama 2pagi dan 3 malam beriadah. tak kan tak larat kot..semua track n sportshoes dah siap...tak maulah gaya lebih dari exercise kan.

umi tau minda umi akan dibrainwash berterusan tanpa henti dlm 3 ceramah dan 7 LDK..umii harap tak mabuk kot...dah lama dok ceramah kat students now masa kami lak diajar..tak taulah makan ajar ke tidak. apapun umi akan menurut perintah..nanti kena saman payah lak. kena berhenti kerja sapa nak tanggung makan minum.harap nak jual bendi n kacang panjang lambat lagi la.

apapun umi akan p dgn hati terbuka walaupun terbuku dihati sebab kena tinggai anak2.dahla abah baru balik petang ni, sesudah subuh esok umi nyah lak...kesian....tak pa umi positive...doakan umi k ye. nanti balik umi akan alkisah .

Morning Potluck

My morning potluck company: Kak Ita, Ain S, Nana and Ain J...happy all the time



Another corner; Liza, Umi, Yanti and Intan....we all happy all the time juga

Harta

1. ALONG ..wanna be a doctor or a politician? i just want u to be my son


2. AKAK...adui every time posing dia gini aje....


3.BOB you are still mine....5 years to come i don't know


4. ATIH my handygirl..score in SPM atih...if not ...you balik kampung jaga tok

5. space ni dikosongkan kerana anak ke 5 umi tak ada gambar...EMAN sori no



6. My clone ADIK, who is ...payah nak describe ni...my shadow when i was young



ALIN and AYISH complete our family's no 7 and 8 th members.

HARTA YG AMAT BERNILAI DUNIA DAN AKHIRAT...BEGITU JUGA AMANAH YG AMAT BERAT.

sakit

hari ini banyak betul yg sakit. dari semalam umi x jerap tidur jaga ayish demam n sakit gigi..kejap2 jaga...tidur umi terganggu...kesian ayish menggigau..panas badan boleh jadi tungku goreng telur...
ntar ayish n bagitau kat mak dia nanti 9 am abah mai amik p klinik...umi payah la nak wak pi sebab jauh balik dari changlun...so abah yg amik, biar dia amik kisah sikit sebelum p penang selama 3 hari.
umi gigih jual tudung lycra n bawal kat kkwan ofis...laku banyak weh..yg umi amik pun banyak so untung memang tak banyak..seronok2 aje leh tolong kkwan bertudung..
then umi lari ke library trying to complete chapter 1 and 3...syukur...sakit gak mata, pinggang n kaki kena skema kat library.
at 12 balik ke cubic sbb bbdak mai nak buat muet speaking...tau takut...pas lunch sambung lagi entertain depa.kesian tengok muka pucat lesi...ni llum jumpa mungkar nakir lagi...
4 lebih baru leh balik..on the way dah nak lelap...letih sngat...amik ayish..dia dah k sikit...sampai terus lena tak sedar diri until 6...mujur alin n ayish k aje kat depan. tapi kaki lenguh sangat....decide bawak bbdak ke KFC dulu.tgh makan bro called lak cakap mak sakit perut. selera terus hilang risaukan mak...apa pulak mak silap makan ni.
9 pm sampai rumah mak. tengok my sis in law dah ada..dia basuh kain mak.....mak asyik dok tak selesa lagi....tunggu mak samapi 10pm lebih then kena terpaksa balik gak sebab rumah abah x dak...kalau tidur rumah mak sure pagi esok bz giler, nak ntar bbda ke sekolah...doa agar mak k....
sampai n terus solat. nak kemas rumah tak berdaya...ala rumah umi ni dari depan sampai ke dapur, berselerak..mak cik yah pun dah x mai kemas....umi tutup mata ja sebab tak mampu nak buat semua.
mujur baju dah iron...baju alin dah basuh. at 11 baru abah call ..umi ingat dah tak ingat kat kami...ala itupun pas umi sms...bagi ayish ubat, dia berleter lak, ubat rasa macam kopi la...dia bukan orang tua la kena minum kopi sedangkan bau macam oren aje...akai tul x mau makan ubat. nanti demam lagi sapa susah ayish oi.....
pendek kata hari ini hari yg meletih n menyakitkan......hope tomorrow will be better, insyaallah.

Celaru @ Confused

celaru betui hidup ini...kejap ok kejap ko..memang dugaan Allah.

whatever it is, one must accept the designed fate, sail through the fierce waves, endure the bitterness of disappointments, adjust the fluctuation of mixed emotions.bla bla bla.

the older we are the more challenging life is, the more hurtful the feeling is, the more frustrating the result is...thus the more confused one is.....ish ish ish.

when emotion clouds one's judgement, one can never become rational, one fails to see the simple truth in it, one struggles to accept the facts, one despairs alone....ntah,ntah ,ntah..

now, think hard, how to adjust life back to sincere reality, how to put two n two together, how to rekindle what is slowly disappearing, how to cherish the blooming happiness, coz actually, one just do not know HOW....adui, adui,adui.....

BZ

early morning already saw me outside the house burning rubbish n dead leaves..to turn into fertilizer for my next project..cili besar n kacang bendi...so the soil must be rich.after hanging the clothes,umi rushed to see tok..her, she sakit perut...then i went to buy pekasam for her at wet market...rushed back to her house..already 12..completed routine of washing her clothes n boiled water, left her n reached home at 12.30 kot.
then entered the kitchen..tengok nasi semalam still ada, ikan goreng do tergolek so decided to whip up fried rice for bob..he likes that...meantime, cooked chicken curry n tumis bahan utk buat bihun kat eman.kesian dia kat asrama. exam lak.
planned to rest n flip a few pages of the latest novel...but found out exercise books to be marked..tomorrow sure students will come to get them back...
now already 3...sat gi wanna fry the beehoon...bagi eman makan panas2 sikit.sambe tu check fb n upload blog ni....pas ni sure bz lagi...plan to visit supermarket n buy stuff for BTN this friday...adui pasai masuk hutan ni yg malas...i ni penakut sikit ngan trekking ni...so have to find sportshoe, track bottom, baju warna putih yg pening ni. takkan nak songlap yg atih punya dia tinggi, i ni kemetot...baran tul BTN ni....tak yah dok brainwash i la....i tau yg mana elok, yg mana berulat......
luckilly there will be about 30 of us..so i am among friends......
so Balik Pulau 15 - 17 ...here i come.
18...have to submit chapter 1 n 3...dan ke nak buat suma ni..........tolong.............

Budi pada tanah

Umi percaya berbudi pada tanah amat menyenangkan sebab tanpa hampa kita akan mendapat hasil yang menggembirakan berbanding dgn berbudi pada manusia yg kadangkala amat mengecewakan.Buktinya.sepokok cili besar yg membuahkan hasil yg amat banyak.memang umi tak sangka kerana umi jarang ada kelapangan utk menjaga pokok2 dgn baik, tapi ianya tetap berbuah. kacang panjang pulak dalam proses mengeluarkan bunga...

Sedih

Kekadang umi cukup sedih,

penat lelah kita tidak dihargai,tidak menjadi isi,
selagi kita mampu bergerak,, selagi itu kita dipijak,
selagi itu, penat kita dikerah, biar letih, lemah dan lelah,
biarkan, perah keringatnya, sampai dia kalah, mengaku kalah.......

Dah Selamat

Malam tu di Kajang, abah belanja kami makan sate.....100 cucuk kau...naik muak sampai leh bawa balik ke Kedah...makanlah...bukannya selalu mai Kajang ni.



Ai bob, jangan dok usha usha bag along...along tak amik pun laptob bob..cube, t-shirt, baju asrama, MP3 adalah ..jangan mare....see u next year!



ha adik-adik along, kalau nak ikut along, beljar betul2..nanti leh p jauh-jauh macam along, tak yah dengar berleter..ha ha ha..



ha along...dengar nasihat umi ni. belajar betul2..jangan ingat nak balik aje...pulun sungguh sungguh agar dapat mumtaz...cemerlang la tu....umi tau susah ,tapi kena usahalah...



family photo sebelum along berangkat ...ni belum cukup korum...



Along, janganlah tinggalkan kami....sapa nak suruh kami solat nanti..along jangan amik mamut ayish tau...alin nangis sehingga ke dalam kereta...dia baru sedar along dah tak ada di malaysia.
SELAMAT BERANGKAT ALONG, JANGAN LUPAKAN KAMI YE.....

Hampir2 Ayish.....

After class on Sunday, we left for KL...it was already 6pm and umi urged everyone to hurry up coz we wanted to see eman n give his IC..for PMR..lagipun along posa so nak ligan masa nak buka.



at about 7 we arrived at SMKAK, met eman n the boys posed in front of their school..ayish pun nanti minta2 dapat ke situ gak.



our trip was smooth, syukur, umi drove until Gunung Semanggol n then abah took over, co navigated by along n bob, ntah apa2 depa gebang, umi dah dozed off.we arrived at Sg Buloh at about 4am...continued sleeping until subuh. then we went to Teh's house, ntar daun palas, pekasam n kopi yg dia pesan. then tertidur lagi kat rumah dia. at 10am, woke up, teh dah ready hidang laksa, cakes..rezeki jgn ditolak anak2...mai kita makan. then we went to fetch akak...n surely bowling is our next activity at Plaza Alam Central...then we had KFC....after that what happen?



the children were bz buying stuff there n it was getting late dah 3 lebih..we all hurried to basement. atih n bob paid for the parking ticket..the rest were in the car....then out of the sudden umi tersedar....oi ayish mana? dia tak dak dlm kereta. umi dah debuk debak...mana anak aku ni....everyone rushed to the floor where we had lunch....cari kelam kelibut..dia tak dak di tempat tu...umi dah nak pengsan...tetiba akak ternampak ayish, duk selambe aje kat tempat Information ngan pak cik guard....dia terus terpa mai kat umi...adegan sayang menyayang, tangis menangis antara kami berdua....terima kasih pak cik...dia kata ada seorng brother wak p ayish kat tempat dia...ayish cakap umi tinggai dia p tingkat lain.....dia dah nak nangis tapi pak cik yg beik hati tu pujuk .....Ya Allah syukur tak terkira...ayish minta maaf kat umi dia kata dia kesian kat umi...sepatutnya umi yg minta maaf kat dia. kami terus ke KLIA, nak cari hotel..kami suma tidur, letih dgn kejadian tadi. tengok tu sayu muka ayish.
finally, we arrived in Kajang as hotel kat KLIA mahal2 belaka......biarlah jauh sikit.sure abah nak wak kami pi akan sate Hj Samuri ni. apapun umi amat bersyukur dan ini satu lesson for all of us...........sayang ayish...sampai kat hotel pun dia masih dok kata kesian kat umi.....sedih tengok umi......bayangkan kalau.........

Release Tension cara budak2

ish budak eman ni. cuba duduk elok2 dgr nasihat umi..taula hang tension...rambut tu malam ni bagi senior paras elok2. tu la kemarin tak mau p gunting...umi bersyarah sambe makan kuih gunting( ala-ala kuih siput) yg umi tungkus lumus buat pagi kemarin.



Ntah apa amanat yg diceramahkan oleh along untuk eman. dengar tul2 eman...berkat nanti along doakan semasa dalam plane nanti.


along dah mabuk bawa kereta..dia belasah selagi tak balik sana. kembara umi dah jadi hak dia. bila umi tanya best tak drive Kembara, dia tak berani jawab .takut umi bagi kembara ni kat dia dan minta dia beli CRV kat umi nanti..tau pun takut.
ni dlam perjalanan melawat eman...nak bagi amanat terakhir sebelum dia exam.




Ni la cara-cara anak-anak umi tolong eman release tension nak hadapi PMR selasa ini..depa main bola dgn style masing-masing...along dah lama dok tunggu saat2 ni.maklum sebelum ni dia dok sorang2 kat rumah. bila bob n eman balik, terus depa main.

Pergi dan Kembali

Insyaallah, in 3 days time, along will be leaving for Egypt, to continue in his 4th year at Cairo Univ...i dont know if he will be back next year..i pray along will find his niche in his course...i realize that he is already mature, yet being a mother, he is always small in my eyes. so whatever decision he is making, i am still contemplating whether to agree or not...
Along will be replaced by Bob who came home last week.so the occupant of boys' room is still there...hope he will continue helping the family just like what along did. he will spent about 3 weeks and then return to UIA...
then, Bob will be replaced by akak who will come home sometime in Nov...he he pelipat baju balik, atih will surely smiles to the ears.....
in a meantime, eman will be sitting for his PMR this Tuesday, the same day of along's departure...so we hope along's prayers as a musafir, will be granted by Allah n eman will score good results, insyaallah.
Next in the list is atih who will face the most terrifying exam, SPM on 23Nov...adui this year is really exam year for our family, with adik just finishing her UPSR.

all in all, umi hopes this year will bring more happy results n blessed life....our family evolves as the world revolves.......