Ubah Haluan

Today, raya Korban, as always celebrated at tok's house. Umi was not feeling well, coughing now and then but work must be done. After subuh umi fried beehoon, mee and fried rice, all ready to be served. by 8, the takbir from both surau and mosque was already called. Ketupat, gulai, rendang pun ade.

Umi could not decide where to go as abah did not come yet. then Bob told that they would pray at Masjid Tanjung Pauh, so umi decided to go to the nearby surau, a place that was a popular spot during my childhood. That was where we played hide and sick seek, played cikgu-cikgu, masak bubur asyura, attended nite tuition and of course praying....

Umi had not been to that surau for about 30 years, even though i pass by the place every time umi comes to see tok, but never stop. Today, umi felt slightly awkward, and sure the villagers also  started thinking: Awat la si Yan ni mai semayang sini.  normally umi would go to Masjid Al A'la but today i made another bold move. Of course i still recognize some of my childhood friends who are now as old as i am, and the mak ciks who used to entertain me at their houses.  I was well-liked (perasan tapi betui) by them as i was a very good girl.......

The prayers completed in about 30 minutes and  off i went home. This raya was quite a quiet affair as none of my siblings came home...so i le tuan rumah, i le tetamu. Luckilly my children are here.....Tonite i am still spending my nite at tok's and my fever continues.

Pengorbanan Seorang Wanita

Memang senang bercakap mengenai korban , berkorban, pengorbanan, dikorbankan atau terkorban  tapi memang payah utk melaksanakannya, tambahan pulak sekiranya pengorbanan kita tidak dihargai, dipandang sepi, disisih sendiri, dipejam tak peduli.....well orang boleh kata, kita ni kalau nak berkorban tak boleh disebut, diungkit, dicerita, dihebah, disiarkan secara langsung, tapi kekadang sebab manusia kian alpa, maka pengorbanan kita tidak dipandang walau sebelah mata, malah kita dihindik lagi, diberikan lagi kerja, disuruh lagi berusaha, dipaksa lagi bekerja, baik dengan kata-kata maupun perbuatan. dek kerana kita dah ditakdirkan tak sampai hati nak menyusahkan orang, jadi kita  buat secara rela, secara ikhlas, secara baik kerana kita menghargai orang yang disekeliling kita, sampaikan kita terlupa bahawa kita juga ada kehidupan tersendiri, niat terpendam, hasrat yang tak diucapkan tapi tak dapat dilaksanakan dek kekangan pengorbanan itu.

Maka terjadilah........kecik HATI........jaga-jaga jangan sampai anda dilanda penyakit ini.....