SORRY ATIH

SALAM,

HEHE, umi minta maaf for not updating this blog to wish you a Happy 20th Birthday.......ala dah besaq panjang kan. langkah pun dah panjang semedang aje...maklum dok kat rumah.semua kereta dia pakai.....

Apapun umi harap atih tak hampakan harapan umi dan abah. Belajar lok2 dan score sebaiknya dalam pelajaran.

Jadilah anak yang mendengar kata dan menyejukkan hati, jangan dilayan perkara yang tak berfaedah.

jaga diri dan keluarga kerana kecantikan seseorang bukan terletak pada paras rupa, tapi pada tutur kata dan budi bahasa.

18

Yesterday my third son, Aiman turned 18......an age where one is expected to reach a mature teenage life.
Being the fifth in the family is somewhat a deprive as we are busy tending to the old and the young and somehow, unexpectedly and unconsciously miss the time spent with him, forget that he also needs attention... a big mistake done but hopefully he will realise that no matter what happens, our love for him is strong and sincere, no doubt about that......

So, dear Eman. do make us proud of you and believe that you can achieve anything if you set your heart on it. The right path must be trodden if you want the best in your life.

LOVE U FOREVER.HaPPY BIRTHDAY,DEAR.

Ummi's ramblings, but sincerely written.

Kinda scary eh....but dont get me wrong. i am not scared of things or what but scared if  i fail to fulfil my life meaningfully. if i do not contribute enough, if i do not give my very best in life and at the end, i will leave without anything worth remembering.

The story of Allahyarham Muhammad Ammar, a Malaysian student who studied in Turkey and suddenly passed away at a very tender age of 20 made me shiver in mixed feelings: i salute him for being so brave, so giving, so selfless in the name of jihad. His contributions, sacrifice and commitment in promoting the beauty of Islam led me to such an embarrassing thought; for i am almost 50, yet i realise that i did not contribute enough, what i am doing are just routine, and routine, day in, day out, leading a mundane life, never steer away from the norms...maybe i am too scared to try anything new, maybe i like to procrastinate, maybe the easy life i am leading make me too complacent, too contented that this is my life, and what i am doing is enough.

How wrong.......

Then again, i start thinking, jihad can be done in many ways. Like what Along said: studying with the intention of getting the blessing of Allah, of giving back to community is also jihad....which makes me think, well....raising children sincerely, making sure they grow up to be responsible, successful people are also jihad, no? my children are my weapons, they are my soldiers, they will be among those who would sacrifice in the name of Allah, so, why dont i make the best of them?.....

I must offer my might in making sure they will be the path leaders, those who never weaver in making sure that only those who are sincere will get the blessing of Allah.....well i am not perfect, i am not very well-versed in religion, but i strongly believe, i can do, in my own way, for only Allah Knows what is the Best. i am not perfect, i make mistakes, i falter in many ways, but i will stand up and find ways to counter all the wrongdoings, insyaallah.

A quote from the novel Anthem, written by Hlovate,( ini buku cerita BM but peppered with English terms)about a third-culture child, who changed from the too westernized life into a blessed one gives me a hope that life is not stopping me from changing for the better.......ala promo la pulak. takpe,buku ni best.

Every soul has a past, every soul lives a present, and every soul deserves a future......

3 minggu yang membahagiakan

 Sukenye ayish bila umi cuti sama dgn dia.....jum kit p jalan.....

 kat shah alam kami dok hotel ni....adui menakutkan walaupun artistic design dia. bagi orang tua macam umi ni, rasa  tak selesa la...dah la lampu samar samar gitu....

 cantik lagi menarik tapi..........the last for our stay...

 Then, kami ke FRIM Kepong....first time bagi bbdk ni pi melawat pak lang depa.abang abah yg kerja di pejabat hutan. Umi dah pernah pi masa baru kawin dulu...agak2 dah lebih 20 tahun...dulu abah terasa mcm payah nak ke sini, now dah ada GPS berani lah...tu pun sesat ntah ke kilang mana....

 Rezeki. elok aje sampai mak lang dah sediakan nasi...apalagi bbdak ni balun..tambah hujan pulak. semua sedap.......

 balik dari sana, abah kena pi Langkawi pulak, so kami pun join pada hari rabu..umi bawa bbdak ni pi, abah dah tunggu di sana....

 Hujan pulak turun di sini, Pantai Pasir Hitam....kami tak berani nak turun sebab batu dia licin so did some shopping aje....

 Pastu depa masuk pulak Taman Boya....umi yg sememangnya penakut, duk di luar saja......hmmmm beranila depa pegang boya batu, cuba boya betoi mau menjerit...sekali dia libas dlm air pun depa dah kecut beruk...

 Hari Khamis kami ke makam Mahsuri lak...dah banyak berubah tmpat ni..last umi pi dah 20 tahun yg lalu..

 cam besa posing saja

 kat telaga ni alin n ayish beljar ceduk air...then basuh muka....ayish kata pas ni dia awet muda, ramai awek nak kat dia..........amboi gatai.

 Pemandangan ditepi perigi.....

 kat pintu luar ada kolam ikan koi.....penuh kiambang bertaut.......

 Then, tersinggah kat Cenang beach.....alamak ramai pulak duyung dok tersadai kat sini....sedih...orang asing dah menjajah tempat kita. dok kat sini rasa macam di luar negara pulak......cepat2 kami tinggalkan tmpt ini wpun ayish sibuk nk mandi....tak tergamak rasanya.

 At 4pm kami dah kat jetty...cukuplah 2 hari kat sini, dah terasa rindu sgt2 kat rumah....mmg betoi orang kata kat Langkawi ni boleh dok saja kalau lama jemu.

at 6 kami dah sampai Kuala Perlis...tengok umi cuma beli satu benda saja kat Idaman Suri. walaupun abah berkali2 ajak umi ke HIG ( Haji Ismail Group) yg terbaru dan besaq, umi menolak sebab takut terbeli benda yg x perlu...maklum gaji x dpt lagi......cukupla percutian kami yg murah ini.nak ke luar negera tak mampu.....

Manik oh Manik

 Dah lama tak update blog ni.ntah pasai apa.....yang pasti umi dah gila.....hehe bukan gila yg kena masuk Tg Rambutan tu...ni gila jahit manik....impian dah lama , now baru berjaya.....

 Design umi senang saja.....ikut kata hati nak buat cmna pun. mula2 buat kat perca kain, then atas kain velvet.

 ni baru berani buat kt tangan baju....ala-ala penambahbaikan gitu...baju lama gak

 Umi pakai belasah aje....walaupun ada buku dan blog contoh, umi amik sikit2 aje

 ni pun simple. kat baju batik....teringat kat Bibi dari Kelantan yg ajar....dia expert betoi....

 Taada......ni pun ciptaan sendiri...buat, tetas, buat tetas...then kalau rasa ok teruskan aje....bukan sapa nak marah.....walaupun atas katil penuh dgn manik............

Nipun ......buat main redah aje...............insyaallah nanti koi pandai la....cuma umi risau takut mata koi rabun aje....maklum dah tua baru nak minat......minattu dah lama, cuma tak berkesempatan....now i am dead serious......doakan ye....

Semua Dah Terbang

Semua dah balik ke tempat masing2. rumah dah sunyi. yg tinggai hanya kanak2. kehidupan kembali seperti sediakala. rutin tetap sama. ntah bila depa cuti lagi. yg pasti umi yg akan bercuti 2 minggu. nak gi ziarah depapun rm tak cukup dah sebab gaji awai sangat. nak tunggu bonus tahun depan baru dapat.
so umi cuma doakan kesejahteraan anak2 baik di mana mereka berada. fokus dlm pelajaran. tuntut ilmu yg baik sahaja, yg tak elok letak tepi, jgn pandang langsung.......

49th Birthday

 Hujan lebat kelmarin tidak mematahkan semangat anak2 umi merancang sambutan awal harijadi umi bertempat di Cafe A (KMK). Sebab Eman kena masuk kolej balik dah, kami sambut secara sederhana. Blueberry cake n domino's pizza licin dimakan, maklum hujan perut jadi lapar. Alongpun dah berisi setelah 4 bulan bercuti...so makan sikit ajelah

 Tak tau la sapa yg makan banyak ni.

 kad harijadi dari, Dr Fakhrullah ,OMG, Bob @An, Eman Awe Ganu, Adik Siska, Alin Pap dan Ayish Ensem....kali ni umi minta blender baru yg leh buat juice n ice blended....now nak go healthy with carrot, orange and tomoto plus celery juice....uish sure nampak muda pas ni.

 Macam besa, kalau kat ofis, umi n Intan akan sambut sebeday sekali. Intan baru masuk 33 n umi pun tak jauh berbeza hehehe......kek cantik Intan yang beli.

 Roti jala mak Liza masak n bihun hailam mak su Intan buat. Kami ni pandai makan ja....leh jamu kkwan.

Photo shot of our colleagues.....memang meriah bila kami masuk ofis pas raya. semua pakat nak buka cerita. maklum study week students pun x mai. kami apa lagi....raya la

Apapun yang paling umi hargai ialah jasa kedua aruah ibubapa yg berjasa mendidik umi sehingga menjadi....orang...moga Allah Merahmati kedua aruah. Al-fatihah

Penang Tour

This hariraya aidil adha celebration  was a simple event. Since all my brood came home, we decided ( actually i was the decider) to go to Penang for a 2 day trip. jadilah since the economy is very tight. On Thursday we arrived at B-Suite at about 2 pm, the usual venue was Bukit Jambul Bowling centre...wherever we go the children would make sure there was a bowling arena...agak2 le....semua pakat perasan depa pandai ....

Umi did some shopping, got a few t-shirts for Ayish since he already outgrew his clothes..and it was quite some time since i last bought his stuffs. Planned to go to Hammer Bay for dinner but cancelled it coz we were too tired to drive there...waiting for the food to be served would take about an hour and by the time it arrived, we would already feel too sleepy to enjoy it. so might as well we returned to the hotel and grabbed whatever edible.

On Friday, we left at about noon and headed towards Bendera Hill. They really wanted to visit the place, planned many time but always did not materialize so this time they were adamant so off we went..But stopped at Masjid Negeri for Jumaat prayers first. We ladies had our lunch, listening to the khutbah clearly delivered from the mosque. Then the father and sons had lunch and we arrived at the foothill at about 3.00. Observing the height of the hill made me shivers...sure it would not be my cup of tea. So i surrendered early and Bob accompanied me while the others took the challenge and went up the hill.

When they finally came down, they complained of Bangang ( Ayish's term of bengang)......haha padan.

We left the place n stopped at Carefour coz i wanted to get a new blender ( cadang nak buat fruit juice n ice blended)....konon hadiah harijadi hehehe.....but when the children grabbed this and that, the total sale was rm475.....adui mak.....itulah depa x tau, hang sikit, aku sikit, dah jadi bukit.

Finally, we arrived at about 10pm......hmmmmm there goes our hariraya  trip.......rm1000 gone......apalah sangat dibandingkan dgn kegumbiraan anak2...

Erti Pengorbanan

Assalamualaikum,

Moga semua sihat wal afiat. Dah habih raya no? Ye la kali ni raya aidil adha dirayakan secara sederhana. Yang penting semangat pengorbanan kita hayati dan praktikkan.

Umi pun kali ini beraya ala kadar saja. Maklum gaji awai sangat tak berani nak belanja sakan. Bulan depan jenuh garu kepala. Kan Allah tak suka hambaNya membazir. Bukan apa kuih raya yg haritu pun tak habih lag. sapa pun tak larat nak makan. jadi dari membazir dan dimurkai Allah, kali ni umi tak order kuih, cuma beli sebiji cheese cake. Kot2 sapa mai. Ketupat order 2 kilo....tapi sampai hari ni tak habih lagi, ntahla kali ni semua anak2 tak pulun makan. Ada yang diet, ada yang pantang. 

Pagi raya,abah, umi n the boys pi solat di Masjid Tanjung Pauh. First time jejak ke situ. Selalu umi pi masjid A'la kat Jitra. Ubah suasana la pulak. Kan kita diminta utk berubah. Jgn dok setempat saja, cari pengalaman di tempat lain.  Hujan agak lebat tapi tak kami hiraukan, janji dapt solat jemaah aidil adha. Ini pesan aruah mak. Dia kalau umi tak pi solat dia marah betoi. so akan umi pastikan ianya menjadi amalan. 

Pas tu kami menziarah kubur mak, pak dan sedara. Sayu rasa hati bila melihat pusara yg berdekatan. Umi terasa dan tertanya, di manakah agaknya tempat pembaringan umi nanti. Adakah anak2 akan menziarah dan menyedekahkan alfatihah nanti, insyaallah, moga depa tak lupa. Kan ke telah diriwayatkan.

Apabila matinya anak Adam, tiada apa yang dapat memberinya kebaikan kecuali:

amalannya, ilmu yang dimanafaat dan doa anak yang soleh.

dalam pukui 11 pagi kami bertolak ke Sg Yan. Kali ni mak ngah dan pak long tak mai beraya di sini, jadi kami la yang pi menziarah depa pulak. Bukan ke Allah sayang kepada sesiapa yang menghulur tali silaturrahim? Bila sampai kami amik keduanya dan terus ke Guar Cempedak, ziarah kubur belah abah pulak. Rutin tetap kami.

kalau pi rumah mak ngah, sure mengantuk punya, jadi terlelap lah sat. dalam pukui 3 kami bertolak balik. singgah pula kat Pendang. pi rumah bakal mentua along....makan lagi nasi ayam....adoi rezeki jangan di tolak, musuh jangan di cari. kami bincanglah sikit sebanyak pasai nak buat walimah tahun depan. Dapat lagi anak semaian pokok puding. maklum umi n bakal bisan ngam ....dia siap semai dah tunggu umi pi amik. insyaallah moga hubungan kami jernih selamanya...

Hari raya kedua, kami tak pi mana. Abah sakit gout lagi. Umi buat nasi lemak dan laksa. Kot2 sapa mai adalah hidangan kan....petang anak sedara dari Yan mai. rezeki depa la......umi pun makan lagi....rasanya naik badan tak sangga dah.tak leh jadi, lepas ni kena posa, kena posa kena posa. Kalau tidak badan naik, penyakit mai.

Insyaallah, esok kami akan ke Pulau Pinang. Percutian singkat sebab anak2 semua ada. Habit berjalan2 makan angin tetap menjadi rutin. selagi depa tak tinggai keluarga, selagi tu la abah bawa depa p jalan2.

Doakan kami selamat ye.

Selamat Hari Raya

Good day all/ assalamualaikum.

I want to wish all my beloved students a happy hari raya and happy holidays. 
Take care all.

HATIKU SAKIT OR SAKIT HATIKU

OUCH.................. IT HURTS

ADIK N PMR

Today Adik, the last of the clan to sit for PMR has started her first paper and i pray that she will do fine.  She prepared for this exam, sacrificed her sleeping time, fought the ups and downs of life problems, controlled her emotions, took the challenge and finally, today she will have to prove that she too can be like others.........kami suma sayang Adik. Doa kami moga Adik berjaya.....AMIN.