Kenangan

Today is supposed to be my late sister's 64th birthday...my cik ( Maznah Mat Zain) who passed away 5 years ago due to heart failure was my so called adopted mom..i was born a year after she got married...yet she did not have any...so she dotted on me, bought stuffs for me until one day she adopted one girl when i was 12.....

i owe a lot to her for being my sister, trainer, companion, problem solver, sifu( cooking) and many more things that i learnt when i was young. For example:

1...ha minat memancing n menangkul udang...sungai kat kampung tu la lubuk kami.
2...buat kuih raya..samperit, biskut sampan, kek ( to name a few)...
3...masak laksa, bihun sup ( 2 of my speciality)....
4...gunting rambut i sampai pendek kontot...but until now i pandai potong sendiri.
5...bawa i p tengok tv kat rumah2 di dalam kampung zaman dulu2. ( masa tu x dak sendiri lagi)
6.. buatkan i fashion baju raya setiap tahun...sekali fikir..creative gak kak i ni.
( ala kalau herot camna pun i tetap pakai)
7...buat suma preparation, tempah kot masa i nak p belajar Canada dulu...tq cik.
8...mengasuh anak-anak i bila i balik kampung...suma dia sayang....

jasa cik memang tak ternilai harganya.

I doakan moga rohnya ditempatkan bersama sama orang yang soleh.....amin....

PADAN MUKA

Semalam sambil menonton Cik MIdah Kuih Bangkit (drama merepek TV) umipun dgn gumbiranya menyanyikan lagu ini;

DAM DAM DUM BUNYI MERCUN, KANAK2 DATANG BERDUYUN....

Sekali PANG...sebuah penampar kecil hinggap ke pipiku......

ADUI...awat ni ayish? sakit ni!

Selambernya dia berkata:

TAK BAIK MAIN MERCUN...........BAHAYA..................


hA AmbiK kau.........padan muka umi..........ayish ni betui sangatla.....orang seronok2 nyanyi saja....dia tu penakut....x leh jadi hero langsung........

Sedih

Umi feels so sad, reading Bob's blog reminiscing his younger life...how much i missed keeping track of his years of growing up...i admit..he was more stable when young, always played the cool part of being the mediator when along n akak squabbled, mostly berebuting toys.....well a level-headed boy turned out quite the opposite now...that what make me wonder....ke mana hilangnya Bob yg dulu?

Bob grew up mostly losing himself in his own world...of gadgets...yes his drawers are filled with ntah pa2 paraphernalia which mostly came from our room...he he he....kalau hilang apa...chargers, enset, camera, u can find it in his drawers.....i thought wow one day Bob would be a successful inventor...senang sikit umi nak minta dia cipta apa2 bagi umi mudah buat kerja.....but....the interest somehow lost in the mist....secondary school did not see him having an interest in Physics...which i thought would be kacang to him...it was the opposite case...adui...

umi n abah used to discuss this and waited to see him create something in his life...tunggu punya tunggu apa pun tak jadi....so my comment to him was....hang ni Bob, u r the jack of all trade but master of none..........rupa2nya Bob was bz creating his name in so many things....so much so that school cases made him famous....but deep inside we knew that actually he was still struggling to find his own niche....n we did not help him much coz we believed he must learn through experience.......

SPM results were not up to our expectation..actually all the signs led to that but as anxious hopeful parents we secretly refused to admit them...well..life is not bed of roses.........when he decided to try for Darul Quran we allowed him, waitng what would the course do to him...3 months n he quitted....we were a bit disappointed but then understood that...at least he tried..even struggled.....

Now, UIA is witnessing his tumultuous days, scrambling here and there, trying to manage his own life....we sincerely pray that one day, he will find the turning point that promises a balanced, peaceful, contented, comfortable suitable life for him.....just remember: u fell once, but next time u will be more careful not to fall again..


To my dear son.....umi is always here for u....far yet so close....

Along n Ayish

Salam,
These are the only 2 boys left at home....one the skema eldest, another the pampered youngest...both are of two different worlds.....the brother is the follow-the-rules type...the analytical, serious boy of 21...the so called future doctor....the opposite one is the naughtiest, couldn't care less, carefree, cheeky 5 years old boy....

My, what a big difference they have. The first and the last...worlds apart.....yet together in my small world.....

makan mudah

Yesterday, umi went home to see tok early, bringing the stuff bought at wet market....by 11 only umi left tok...(kesian tengok raut anak matanya)...plan to prepare what to cook for eman.
arrived n saw abah still resting ...sakit kaki lagi...plan to go to buy materials for curtain but..ntah i felt so lazy...last2 bum tidur...........
after asar sent eman..he already bought nasi ayam n drinks so we did not get him other stuffs.....then straight to Giant a. setar...la buka posa di Marry Brown lak.......
belasah ajelah.......lagipun dah lama tak p sana asyik tesco saja...boring...
at 7 atih already ordered the food that was served immediately............adui 30 minutes just looking at the food....sampai naik sejuk menggeletar...baru leh buka.....
then rushed home to fetch alin who spent a day at bbsitter's house.........

ntahla..bila baca blog orang masak itu ini umi rasa gak terkilan sebab tak masak...tapi bila fikir makan bukanlah perkara utama berpuasa...bukan masa nak mereka resepi bagi makan sedap....umi rasa apa yg umi buat ni tak salah......pas makan leh terus solat tak yah dok sibuk membasuh kat dapur......

setiap orang ada style tersendiri....ikut seleralah no..........umi tak masak dan tak rasa bersalah...kalau abah n anak2 minta, i am ready....

Abah

Bulan posa ni abah tiap2 hari makan gulai reyas pisang n tulang...walaupun di larang berkali2 namun selera abah tetap maintain...akibatnya dah 2 hari abah menderita bengkak kai sebab ghout....sampai kena cucuk d klinik....kesian tgk abah terhencot2...last2 cool fever utk demam ayish diletakkan kat kaki abah.
ntahla...umi tak tau nak kata apa lagi...........

awai pagi untie yanti dah mai antar pekasam ikan kami mengail dan gulai reyas pisang daging lagi...........tolong........camana nak sembunyi dari abah ni.............

MARAH

Salam,
Umi is seething with anger ......not at anybody but at my foolish self, for my failure to portray my best quality of a concerned, loving, protective, understanding mom, for my ignorance in choosing the best, effective possible way to capture the delicate heart of my children, whom i have to ashamedly admit are trying their level best not to make me constantly upset ,but at the same time struggling alone to show their best acceptable behaviour, which hopefully will make me LOOK like a successful, capable SUPER mom.

My.....i am a total despicable failure........i must admit it because nobody will dare to voice it to me............muhasabah diri Yan...............

Be patient

yesterday, umi reached home at about 4.40...dozed of until 5.30 n abah returned tiredly but was ready to hit the road again as we promised to send eman his food...now we take turn between sending food to eman n breaking fast at tok's.
Wearily n sleepily abah was behind the wheel again n headed towards A.Star...we arrived at SMKAK at 6.30..eman was nowhere to be found. the guard said the students were getting ready so the area was empty....umi left the food at the guard post. Stopped at Tmn Mergong bazaar...adui so many people that made my movement difficult....managed to buy some stuff ...tak kisah apapun as it was already 7pm.
by the time we reached home n started to serve food, Maghrib was announced.

then umi terbaca sms kak liza mengadu that tok was angry at her for sending her the food late...mak oi...liza said whenever chu yan ( thats me) did not come home, tok was always angry....what to do...my life is also tunggang langgang......so umi apologized to kak liza n asked to be patient...tok tu memang garang gitu..sapa sabar saja leh dok ngan dia.......umi tersekat di antara dua khidmat...satu kat rumah dan satu lagi kat tok.......umi tak mau bertanya soalan: MENGAPA.....itu ini cuma umi berdoa tok akan sihat dan sejahtera...she already ordered gulai nangka.....

Last nite umi cooked rice n accidently switched of the plug b4 the rice was fully cooked...so time sahur...alamak nasi tak masak betul2........we had to eat..nak buat camna...lauk k gak but the rice........mentah............

ginilah ragam di bulan puasa ...banyak yg lupa dan sikit yg ingat........ampun.......

Termenung

Umi termenung seorang diri mengenangkan beberapa perkara:

ish nak makan apa lak petang ni?
pasai apa akak n bob senyap sepi ni? posa depa k ke?
bila leh lari p YAWATA or CMart beli seluar bbdak ni?
macamana nak mula baca artikel psikologi ni?
raya ni Teh n Cik Ani balik ke raya di kampung?
bulan ni dapat kut RM3000 ..nak tambah koleksi gelang ke?
mak kat rumah ni larat ke dia posa?
budak along ni p amik alin ke kat sekolah?
awatla tak dak masa nak tengok pokok bunga?
kacang bendi dah banyak berbuah.bila nak masak ni?
raya ni nak bawa bbdak p jalan mana? Kelantan lagi ke Cameron Highlands?
kuih raya nak buat tak tau...rasa macam segan saja.....
sapa rajin nak cat bilik aku ni?

Uh...banyak sangat perkara yg membuatkan umi termenung ni.....

Sebenarnya sebab terjadinya gambar termenung ini ialah.....

ianya diambil sendiri oleh umi semasa menanti student A1E4 nak masuk BT22 at 3 pm untuk Writing Test....tadi kelas at 2 aku dah tersengguk mengantuk...sat gi nak buat camna bagi tak lena.............cikgu bila tak leh mengajar...jaga budak test...memang mengantuk rasanya..........tu yg dok termenung panjang tu............

Best

Amboi sejak cuti 4 hari umi terus diam x update blog.bz friends....Thursday morning at 11 we were already by the lake...ala tasik mana lagi kalau tak kat pendang tu...checked in at 12...relax sat n continued fishing from 2.30 until 7 pm...mak datok gile sungguh...posa tetap maintain....
lauk buka di beli d pekan Pendang....sedap gak...ikut apa anak2 beli kami makan aje...malam solat tarawih kat bilik aje...abah, along n eman ke masjid ...abah kata amboi ramai betui orang kat masjid...sampai tersepit sesak nafas...kalau kat Jitra, sampai 8 rakaat, sure dah tinggai 3 baris....salute Pendangites...
Yang spent the nite kat chalet tu cuma kami n ada satu family dari KL....yg lain senyap sunyi....kami tak kisah....at 5 umi bangun panaskan nasi ( bawa rice cooker) n sup...tak berapa panas tapi belasah aje...susu n cococrunch pun jalan.
early foggy morning umi n atih n abah already fishing...this abah almost got 2 big tilapia but terlepas as the hook was very small ...umi could see the fish fell into the lake again....adui ni yg buat abah semangat......
along, after being coaxed n perli by umi managed to catch one big lampam...jadilah.....
all in all, we caught about 20 fish...which umi already gave t untie Yanti to be turned into a pekasam......balik before Jumaat prayer...then hit the bed until evening....letih macam nak demam rasanya....sampai rumah tok dok diam tak berani habar.siap warning bbdak jgn bagi tau nanti tok mare.....kalaulah tok leh nampak muka umi merah macam udang bakar......

Jumaat morning umi n atih went to market n bought bawal kat tok...mujur bawal tak leh dipancing kalau tidak .....then came home n clean the fish n stuff.....then bz preparing bihun to be taken back by eman.....at about 5 we were in AS ..after sending him, we went to Tesco....ai...buka posa di sana la....ha tengok tu..mee bandung, sup tulang, tomyam, chicken chop ..........hai..senang hidup.

first day

Amboi letih betui posa ari ni...bukan lapar cuma lemah. seisi rumah sunyi sepi d awal pagi...catch up on our sleep...sambe tu basuh baju, cadar dll....celik sat pejam balik.kan umi dah kata umi tak masak so relax sakanla.....

petang at 5.30 kami p bazar ramadhan Taman Suria...along n atih p beli kami relax dlm kereta...kali ini memang sikit perbelanjaan sebab tak ramai..memang amat terasa ketidakhadiran akak n bob...mejapun tak sesarat dulu...duration makanpun tak lama.

hari ini kami p rumah tok, temankan tok yg kuat juga posa...umi tabik la.....sejam lagi nak berbuka tok dah ready ngan nasi n gulai nangka yg kak liza beli...
now abah n along p masjid.kami kat rumah aje.
adoi mata dah x leh buka ni.....nak kena tidur awai esok nak bangun awai buat nasi goreng ikan bilis aje....sempoi.....mujur umi cuti lagi...cadangan nak p kl tidak jadi sebab eman nak balik esok...kesian kat dia...lagipun umi tak mau tinggai tok lama2...

Salam Ramadhan

Welcome ramadhan....bulan yang membawa segala barakah dan nikmah....umi seperti biasa akan mula menjalankan tugas menyediakan sahur..dulu abah help juga, tahun ni tak tau lah...menu yg macamana ntah la...satgi umi discuss ngan anak2.....
waktu buka pula memang dah siap jari jemari nak tunjuk..di Jitra, Tanah Merah, Alor Star(stadium), jln Mergong semua boleh belaka.....

Tentu orang heran pasai apa umi tak masak untuk anak2...well, umi sampai rumah dah kat 5 petang..letih nak masak cuma satu dua jenis saja...bek beli aje...nasi ayam sorang sebungkus senang..pastu beli mee , bihun etc utk lepas tarawih....sahur beli aje sup daging...mudah...alamat gantung periuk la....

jgn kata umi segan malas ye...umi nak convenient....pastu nak balik jenguk mak lagi...sekali sekala nak p lawat eman di agama kedah lak...pendek kata hidup umi sentiasa bz dgn sana sini.....gitulah.....

ish ingat hati nak p KL tengok Akak n Bob....jum abah kita p tengok bbdak tu.........

simple celebration

Sorry ayish. this time umi did not spend much on ur celebration...just bought a rm2.50 small cake, with Pikachu toy on top....umi was not stingy but i think we have been celebrating all the time...wait till ayish grow up a bit and understand the meaning of birthday, we will celebrate grandly k............jangan mare....

Ayish's 5th birthday 8/8/2010

Syukur alhamdulillah, today is Ayish's 5th birthday....he grows up with the most tender loving care from everyone in the family...he was the only one who was delivered through CSection...costed about rm10,000 in delivery cost n payback for 60 day holiday.....
apapun umi amat bersyukur he turns out so cute n smart abit manja though...see yesterday we went to The Store in SP coz he wanted a flash n dash car....thinking back when along, akak and bob were young, they also got this kind of car...sekali beli 3.....

Hopefully all the brothers n sisters will take a good care of him ..dote on him, lavish him once in a while n also share his Mamut ( blanket)......
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AYISH...UMI LOVES U SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH.......

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sayang......

yesterday umi had a meeting with Dr Fauziah at jenj jeng jeng...KFC Jitra...apa punya meting dah....she wanted me to continue my studies n become her RA.research assistant for her project..at the same time i learn for my masters...lagi lak she will pay for my studies...i just could not turn down the offer.....

While discussing at 5.30 i got a call from Ayish. inilah kata-katanya yg meruntun jiwa:


Umi....tolongla mai amik ayish...umi tak sayang kat ayish ke?

aduh......rupa2 abah dia tak p amik lagi seperti yg kami dah janji.....

so abahpun p amik and u know what he said:


ayish tak mau balik ngan abah....abah GEMUK............................alahai anak umi...........

Alahai taman konon

People can say what they like
but for me...this is my heavenly garden,
flourish with my so called selected plants
grown with my tender loving care,
watered with the sparkling fresh H20
fertilized with the best ever baja,

ha ha ha,
my lush garden, my pride,
my therapy, my soothing comfort........i don't care what people think,
this is my garden

Ayish first visit to barber

BEFORE


For the past 5 years, ayish's hair was under the scissors of my sitter's son, who patiently coaxed ayish to have his forever long hair cut...always done in their washroom...plus the running and the catching. Finally, last nite, i took him to see the real barber for his first paid cut. The barber took one look at him and asked:
pompuan ka?
which i shyly confirmed:
dak..lelaki..
i felt so ashamed for letting his hair grow wild like that.
So after about 10 long minutes, he finally got the short hair deserved, which he said he wanted it to look like Aeiril's ( indo singer kot)....adui anakku....

he fidgeted and gave his best sit still composure on the high chair, constantly peering at me and the front mirror, receiving my thumbs up and praises. i had to do it to make him endure the cut..if not leh putus telinga.....

AFTER





ENSEM ANAK UMI...........

BIGGEST CATCH

Finally, i managed to catch this so called tilapia merah..yg ntah tersesat mai kat kail umi....we had a shock and pulled it to the land.....after that the other lampam all pale in comparison.

umi gave the fish to kak liza dia dah bakar air asam....my what an experience.....