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Umi feels so sad, reading Bob's blog reminiscing his younger life...how much i missed keeping track of his years of growing up...i admit..he was more stable when young, always played the cool part of being the mediator when along n akak squabbled, mostly berebuting toys.....well a level-headed boy turned out quite the opposite now...that what make me wonder....ke mana hilangnya Bob yg dulu?

Bob grew up mostly losing himself in his own world...of gadgets...yes his drawers are filled with ntah pa2 paraphernalia which mostly came from our room...he he he....kalau hilang apa...chargers, enset, camera, u can find it in his drawers.....i thought wow one day Bob would be a successful inventor...senang sikit umi nak minta dia cipta apa2 bagi umi mudah buat kerja.....but....the interest somehow lost in the mist....secondary school did not see him having an interest in Physics...which i thought would be kacang to him...it was the opposite case...adui...

umi n abah used to discuss this and waited to see him create something in his life...tunggu punya tunggu apa pun tak jadi....so my comment to him was....hang ni Bob, u r the jack of all trade but master of none..........rupa2nya Bob was bz creating his name in so many things....so much so that school cases made him famous....but deep inside we knew that actually he was still struggling to find his own niche....n we did not help him much coz we believed he must learn through experience.......

SPM results were not up to our expectation..actually all the signs led to that but as anxious hopeful parents we secretly refused to admit them...well..life is not bed of roses.........when he decided to try for Darul Quran we allowed him, waitng what would the course do to him...3 months n he quitted....we were a bit disappointed but then understood that...at least he tried..even struggled.....

Now, UIA is witnessing his tumultuous days, scrambling here and there, trying to manage his own life....we sincerely pray that one day, he will find the turning point that promises a balanced, peaceful, contented, comfortable suitable life for him.....just remember: u fell once, but next time u will be more careful not to fall again..


To my dear son.....umi is always here for u....far yet so close....