The Power of a Mother's Love

Ever since my mom passed away 2 months ago, i have become a very busy mom, having experience 2 incidences that turn me into a very cautious, conscious person. It's very true, and will always be true that if you lose your mom, you will also lose a dear person who will always pray for your good life. You will feel that your life is empty, as if there is a hollow space in your body, and it cannot be filled up with anything. That lack of feeling will haunt you, will remind you that you are actually alone. You might be surrounded by people, hundreds of people, but the fact is, you will always feel lonely. That is the impact of not having a mother who will pray for your safety, for your happiness.

Nevertheless, i always try to take things positively, as i know i am myself a mother and there are 8 lovely children who are relying on my prayers in guiding them pave their life. I realize that as much as i need my mom's prayers, they also are waiting for mine.  I will not disappoint them as my  mom never disappointed me before. Her prayers were the strong supportive motivations that always strengthen my hope and thus, the same would be offered to my children.

I know i have disappointed my mom many times but i also realize that she would not let her sadness clouded her judgement. I was the same loved and pampered daughter to her. My mistakes never deprived me from receiving her never-ending love and support. Yes, we argued, we said bad things, we were at loggerheads but we forgave, we reconciled, we touched our hearts with the bond that existed between us. That is what i call the power of mother' love. Hate was never found in our dictionary and love etched forever in our hearts.

Because of this, i also know that i can never disappoint my children, no matter what they do,  i will forever support them, i will forgive and forget, i will go beyond the normal ability just for their happiness and success and fulfilled life. They can make me sad, angry, despair or down, but get up i will. I must give them what i got from my mom. I want the legacy to continue till we reach Jannah. I will just lead this life, thinking that whatever obstacles experienced are just a part of the test from Allah, thus, i must never lose His love. And love is what my children are going to get, insyaallah.

Menyesal Tak Sudah

Umi dilanda kesalan yang amat sangat. Kenapa ye? Itulah masa aruah mak masih ada, umi tak sibuk pun nak menuntut ilmu memasak makanan tradisional dari mak. Entah kenapa. umi seakan berasa mak akan tetap bersama selamanya dan bila2 masa umi boleh rujuk kat mak bilamana nak memasak. Betapa dungunya diri ini. Mana mungkin ini terjadi.

Dulu umi amat sibuk dgn kehidupan, membesarkan anak. Masak-memasak bukan minat umi. Masak setakat boleh makan saja. Yang lain beli kat kedai. Tapi lama-kelamaan umi tersedar betapa baiknya air tangan ibu yang menyediakan makanan. Penuh diringi dengan doa. Bukannya merasa air tangan orang lain yg kita tak tahu amal ibadatnya, solatnya, hatibudinya......aduh menyesal sekali.

Aruah mak memang teliti dalam dunia memasak ni. yang paling umi tak leh lupa ialah keenakan pulut udang, tepung bungkus, talam ubi kayu, khasidah, ketupat pulut. dan yang paling utama ialah kanji udang kering yang menjadi makanan ruji umi semasa kecil. Sekarang kalau beli kat kedai, ampun tak dak rasa keenakan, kelemakan, kemanisan yg sejati.....banyak yang hampas belaka.

Mengapa umi tak sedar dari dulu. Asyik dengan kesibukan yang lain,langsung lupa akan kepentingan seni memasak. Kepandaian ini cuma diwarisi oleh aruah CIk dan Teh Toh saja. Patutla setiap kali kami ke rumah teh di g. Buloh, anak2 ceria makan sajian teh mereka. memang enak.....

Umi janji umi akan lebih peka pasai makanan ni. Umi akan cuba buat...insyaallah lama kelamaan sure menjadi. Baru puas hati anak2 dapat makan sajian ibu mereka. masih belum terlambat.......

Happy Father's Day, Mr Sham

 Hehe umi snap gambaq lama abah masa dok jaga along and akak. Pasai bancuh susu abah memang tera. Kalau malam, umi dok bang dengar along sebut nama abah ke umi. selalunya nama abah la yg dipanggil so umi tiduq buat2 tak dengaq. Thank you very much

 Ni masa Bob lahir pulak, gendeng lagi abah. Senyum pun dah tawaq sikit hehe....nak p sembahyang pun kena ngasuh dulu ke?

 Alamak, terbalik lak. Ni gambaq awai masa along lahir, baru kena cukuq kepala. Ensem lagi masa ni......

 Ni dah tak tau taun bila.2012 kot. ni masa anak semua dah besaq panjang, so abah ada masa dok bowling. biaq kaki sakit ghout, hayun tetap kuat. adoi............payah nak cakap.

 Jamu makan kat anak2 semedang aje. pantang ada sambutan apa2. makan no satu pilihan utama kami. maklum umi rajin masak kot kedai.

Ni lambang kasih sayang kami, anak pi mana pun kami ikut. make sure depa ok baru kami balik. abah pantang umi kata .jom kita p KL. terus start reta....jalan saja.....itulah kelebihan abah. senantiasa sehati sejiwa. Selamat Hari Bapa......moga Allah berkati Mr Shamsuri dunia akhirat.....Amin.

Alahai Anak-Anakku

Honest. I really like to look at this sketch by Alin.  She is very creative, her eyes are sharp for details of each of her siblings' features. The differences among the boys are vividly depicted: Along with his kupiah n glasses, Bob with his spiky hair, Eman, the tilted head and spiky hair and Ayish, the chubby innocent face that hides many surprising acts.

The girls however, look almost the same except Atih who looks thinner than others. Adik will surely get Alin for making her look fat......Akak is a far cry from the actual Akak......well look can be deceiving right.

Studying this simple sketch makes me wonder what would happen in 10 years time. How much would they change, would they be an easy lot, would they remain close.....ah so many possibilities that would paint our future. My only hope is that, abah and ummi will witness so much success and happiness.

May our life blessed forever.

Kenduri Aruah dan Doa Selamat

 Syukur alhamdulillah kelmarin telah selamat diadakan majlis aruah dan kesyukuran. jamuan yang dimulakan sebaik selesai solat Jumaat di hadiri oleh rakan taulan dan sanak saudara. Terima kasih kepada semua yang hadir membaca Yaasin. Ucapan jasamu sentiasa di kenang ditujukan khas kepada anak saudar Ieza Ibun yang menyediakan makanan yang sedap: gulai ikan talang, ayam merah. daging kicap, ayam kicap, acar timun, laksa dan bubur kacang.....memang dia pakar.

 Para tetamu lelaki yang menjamu selera di luar rumah.

 Tetamu wanita yang sedang mengambil makanan dalam rumah

 kkwan umi dan abah serta sanak saudara yang hadir. Tu ada Ayish yang sedang merengek minta sirap kat umi semasa umi melayan Tok Nab, best friend aruah mak. Eh..ustazah Nashitah, Jamaatun dan Kak Zu pun ada.

 Sedap tak Shitah?

 Ni sepupu, anak mak su dan pak jang. sesekali bila ada kenduri mai la depa. Ait Intan n mak pun ada. TQVM sebab sudi mai.

 tetamu petang yang sesat cari rumah, Shamsul Sakinah ( polka dot) dan Nurul Farida dan kawan pejabat abah sedang menikmati makanan....jemput ye.

Jangan lupa tokey buat rumah Mr Misai yg gumbira datang bersama2 isteri dan anak2 dia. Terima kasih bagi angpau lak kat kami. Apapun umi amat bersyukur kerana hajat utk mengadakan kenduri dipermudahkan Allah. Moga aruah ibu bapa dan saudara umi tenang di alam barzakh dan kehidupan umi sekeluarga diberkati. Yang tak mai kenduri silalah singgah bila free ye.

Salam. Being a long time since my last post, right? Well, I was being tested with unexpected tribulations...the challenge that united my family. I learnt a lot from this experience. I realized how far we digressed from the path of Allah. How neglected, how forgetful we became that Allah reminded us that life is more than having a good time and  neglect the true reason for being alive..that is to be His Servant.

I will not describe what actually happened to my family, but what i can share is that, i realized my family's relationship takes a better turn after all the obstacles that we went through together.

Syukur to Allah for giving us the chance to realize our mistakes and to choose the right path in overcoming our problems.

I must also thank my husband for being my pillar of strength, for being beside me all the time, giving me the choices, supporting our decision, guiding our children and most of  all providing us with his unnerving understanding and dedication. This actually makes us closer than before.

To Akak, Bob and Atih who rushed home just to make sure all the siblings were well taken care of. Your sacrifice will not be forgotten and i pray Allah will reward your kindness now and in the Hereafter. I did not know how to handle this without your support.

To Eman, who taught us the meaning of love and compromise, who reminded us of our responsibility, whose act led us to a better understanding. I am glad i have you back, i get to see the glittering love in your eyes, the selfless act that you showed to your sister, all make you a different person. Your quick act by bringing your friends to help us opened our eyes to see what friendship is all about. Special thank to Ashraf and friends, Ustaz Lutfi whose sincerity soothed our chaotic life, whose peaceful appearance and kind words comforted us a lot. May Allah Bless you.

Distance did not stop Along from supporting us with his advice and never-ending doa. Thank you very much.

We could feel your presence even though you are far away. Knowing that you always pray for us is such a comfort.

To Adik, who made us realize our mistakes, our never-mind attitude, our unconscious neglect. You brought us back to reality, to the guidance of Allah. To the prayers that we somehow brushed aside unintentionally.

To all my friends whose understanding and assistance eased the pain that lumped in my heart. i can't never thank you enough. I realize that true sincere love makes our life meaningful.