This week seems to be a very long working period.like org tua dulu kata pi subuh balik maghrib( in this case asar).i tried to create the mood,hoping this session will flow as smoothly and exciting as i planned. but it was boring habis.
today i had 2 classes,the last as next week we will get new classes.i had actually managed to memorize the students names but alas. the changes in timetable will affect the whole thing
at 3 we the hall committee had to redecorate dewan mahawangsa as we are receiving about 1000 second intake students this monday.imagine doing the same thing again.i am not that active anymore so even arranging plastic flower vases affects my back n feet.
on the way home i stopped at yawata, bought a friend's wedding gift ,then reached home at 5.30.prayed asar n thought of raking the dried konen's leaves but my head was very heavy. i felt like fainting so i lied down n dozed of for a while.i was still thinking of the leaves so i went out and clean the compound. eman helped burning the leaves.i had to do it because we will leave d house for 3 days so i can imagine how my compund would look like if i did not do anything today.
entered the house at about 7 n checked the kitchen.unsatisfied with the condition so the voice raised n anger released unintentionally. fed up with the whole thing. but what to do.
9pm. i am already at my mom's. my back aches,my thoughts go haywire,my spirit down, but my energy retained as i dont want my mom to grumble. she is bedridden but her mind n words are still sharp,very sharp. i dare not argue with her as it would make her sad n i will feel guilty . so i can say that i am caught between my duty to my mom and my responsibility to my family.
suddenly i feel i am old before time.
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