The whole week saw a turbulence in life, a change from normal to chaos, a complacent to disturbed , a happy to wistful, a stable to wretched, a confident to a loser. All of a sudden i grow ( even though i am already old) 20 years older, having to learn and realize that i am not always right, i am not perfect, i am an absolute nobody.
For 47 years , i sailed through my life, experiencing some obstacles, some hiccups, some ups and downs, all manageable, all smooth, all confidently dealt with.
This week however, opened my eyes, my entire heart and soul, my absolute sanity.
never had i expected that the peaceful, contented, happy life would turn 360 degree. The effect is so painful for a very easy going,innocent, cheerful person like me, for i had never ever thought that the drama that i always watched on TV, really unfolded before my very eyes. The pain is so unbearable that my heart goes weak, my words falter, my world crumbles......
Nevertheless, slowly and miserable, i go on with my life, i force myself to smile, i snap my mind to reality and i drag my heavy feet to face the reality of life. In doing so, i tell myself to:
1. forgive and forget.
2. avoid pointing fingers at people
3. respect and value others more.
4. love and care selflessly
5. understand and accept things easily
6. beware and be careful
7. cherish life even more.
8. be ready for more upcoming painful tragedy
9. thank Allah for being so kind and compassionate.
10. live and just live for the sake of people that i love.
My heart bleeds, my soul hurts, my emotion disturbed by my sanity remains......
For 47 years , i sailed through my life, experiencing some obstacles, some hiccups, some ups and downs, all manageable, all smooth, all confidently dealt with.
This week however, opened my eyes, my entire heart and soul, my absolute sanity.
never had i expected that the peaceful, contented, happy life would turn 360 degree. The effect is so painful for a very easy going,innocent, cheerful person like me, for i had never ever thought that the drama that i always watched on TV, really unfolded before my very eyes. The pain is so unbearable that my heart goes weak, my words falter, my world crumbles......
Nevertheless, slowly and miserable, i go on with my life, i force myself to smile, i snap my mind to reality and i drag my heavy feet to face the reality of life. In doing so, i tell myself to:
1. forgive and forget.
2. avoid pointing fingers at people
3. respect and value others more.
4. love and care selflessly
5. understand and accept things easily
6. beware and be careful
7. cherish life even more.
8. be ready for more upcoming painful tragedy
9. thank Allah for being so kind and compassionate.
10. live and just live for the sake of people that i love.
My heart bleeds, my soul hurts, my emotion disturbed by my sanity remains......
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