last nite abah took us for dinner..then went to see tok...adui she was angry as i went quite late. i already told her that i would be late. Pan was there to help her. to make matter worse, we forgot to buy the clock battery she requested a few days ago.
she was seething with anger n i of course, being tired, and suffering from headache, tried to explain to her, but none was accepted.
akak, atih and adik wanted to accompany her but she asked all to go home, leaving her alone. they stayed even though they had to bare listening to her incessant complains...
sometimes, i feel like running away from all of these, isolating myself in my own quiet world, not having to bear the grunge of my mom, coz no matter what i try to do to make her comfortable always ends up in argument.
it is easy for those who do not experience this to say...never mind, be patient, try your best, never give up and whatnot...but to actually face this is sometimes, unbearable to any sane mind. you just want to crumpled up n let it be. however, i just cannot as i will always think of her...like what liza said...chuyan nak lari mana pun, selagi ada tok ah, tak akan boleh.........betui2...jauh tapi rindu, marah tapi sayang, geram tapi tetap nak pi tengok.....thats mother and daughter's bond.....
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